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Musings on…… Home Church/Bible Study

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Thinking about having a little bible study here at the house using these books:

http://store.precept.org/By-Series/40-minute-no-homework/

Read somewhere that these should be the points to follow for a ‘home church’

(Acts 2:42;42 They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer.

1 Corinthians 16:2;On the first day of every week, each one of you should set aside a sum of money in keeping with your income, saving it up, so that when I come no collections will have to be made.

1 Timothy 4:13; Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to exhortation, to teaching.

2 Timothy 4:2: Preach the word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage—with great patience and careful instruction.).

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and this paragraph stood out to me:

When we think of three core things any group — small or big are doing — things that are inward (with our relationships), things that are outward (in the area of evangelism) and things that are upward (toward God), the house church situation provides several advantages over the larger church. Notably, one of them is that it’s not a cultural shift for an unbelieving neighbour or friend of yours to accept your invitation to a gathering that meets in your home, unlike the culture shock of stepping into many of our church buildings for a Sunday morning meeting.

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Oh, I like this article, wraps it up in a  pretty bow: http://www.allaboutgod.com/house-church.htm, this one too,

http://www.compellingtruth.org/simple-church.html

http://homechurchhelp.com/how-not-to-meet and http://homechurchhelp.com/how-to-meet

http://www.smallgroups.com/articles/2008/how-to-start-house-church.html?paging=off

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Orderly Worship
1 Corin 14:

26 What then, brothers? When you come together, each one has a hymn, a lesson, a revelation, a tongue, or an interpretation. Let all things be done for building up. 27 If any speak in a tongue, let there be only two or at most three, and each in turn, and let someone interpret. 28 But if there is no one to interpret, let each of them keep silent in church and speak to himself and to God. 29 Let two or three prophets speak, and let the others weigh what is said. 30 If a revelation is made to another sitting there, let the first be silent. 31 For you can all prophesy one by one, so that all may learn and all be encouraged, 32 and the spirits of prophets are subject to prophets. 33 For God is not a God of confusion but of peace.

Acts 17:11
11 Now these Jews were more noble than those in Thessalonica; they received the word with all eagerness, examining the Scriptures daily to see if these things were so.

romans 16:3

Greet Prisca and Aquila, my fellow workers in Christ Jesus, 4 who risked their necks for my life, to whom not only I give thanks but all the churches of the Gentiles give thanks as well. 5 Greet also the church in their house. Greet my beloved Epaenetus, who was the first convert 2 to Christ in Asia.

colossians 4
15 Give my greetings to the brothers 2 at Laodicea, and to Nympha and the church in her house.

Hebrews 10:24:

And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds.
1 Peter 4:10:

Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms.

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Would be nice to get people gathered together to worship, even newbies. If it grew and became more permanent, we could use one weekend devoted to outreach. Questions about tithing, songs, outreach, growth and inverted focus all show up on the interwebs. Far too early to think about that.

My husband and I praying about it and asking others to pray also.

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Yearn for the Day

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The New Heaven and the New Earth

21 Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for  the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more.

And I saw the holy city,new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God,prepared as a bride adorned for her husband.

And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. 

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

Do you yearn for this day?

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Great Is Your Steadfast Love

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A Prayer of David.

86 Incline your ear, O Lord, and answer me,
    for I am poor and needy.
Preserve my life, for I am godly;
    save your servant, who trusts in you—you are my God.
Be gracious to me, O Lord,
    for to you do I cry all the day.
Gladden the soul of your servant,
    for to you, O Lord, do I lift up my soul.
For you, O Lord, are good and forgiving,
    abounding in steadfast love to all who call upon you.
Give ear, O Lord, to my prayer;
    listen to my plea for grace.
In the day of my trouble I call upon you,
    for you answer me.

There is none like you among the gods, O Lord,
    nor are there any works like yours.
All the nations you have made shall come
    and worship before you, O Lord,
    and shall glorify your name.
10 For you are great and do wondrous things;
    you alone are God.
11 Teach me your way, O Lord,
    that I may walk in your truth;
    unite my heart to fear your name.
12 I give thanks to you, O Lord my God, with my whole heart,
    and I will glorify your name forever.
13 For great is your steadfast love toward me;
    you have delivered my soul from the depths of Sheol.

14 O God, insolent men have risen up against me;
    a band of ruthless men seeks my life,
    and they do not set you before them.
15 But you, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious,
    slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness.
16 Turn to me and be gracious to me;
    give your strength to your servant,
    and save the son of your maidservant.
17 Show me a sign of your favor,
    that those who hate me may see and be put to shame
    because you, Lord, have helped me and comforted me.

Joy and Equality

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http://rcsprouljr.com/blog/kingdom-note-nunc-dimittis/

As I read this, I wonder if a person finds true joy when he/she has let go of worldly things and finally can say ‘I’m ready to be with My Lord”

I often say, I am ready to go, but am I really? Am I ready to give up all the world  gives to me?

Does the pain and suffering have to be more than the happy of life to want to go Home?

Some days was worse than others. I must admit, most of the bad days are my own doing. I am blessed beyond belief, yet things/people do not meet my ‘expectations’ .

Most days I wake up weepy and sad lately. Probably because of the disconnect I have with some of my best friends. And with my church. But again, it’s because I have set too high of expectations for them and they have disappointed me. but alas, who am I but a sinner beyond help without the King, and so are they. Why should I put unwanted and unasked for demands on them?

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Equality. a human thing really. I’m not quite sure God believes in equality for all. Well, my preconceived notion came from this group of verses:

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God’s Sovereign Choice

1I am speaking the truth in Christ—I am not lying; my conscience bears me witness in the Holy Spirit— 2that I have great sorrow and unceasing anguish in my heart. 3For I could wish that I myself were accursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my brothers,a my kinsmen according to the flesh. 4They are Israelites, and to them belong the adoption, the glory, the covenants, the giving of the law, the worship, and the promises. 5To them belong the patriarchs, and from their race, according to the flesh, is the Christ, who is God over all, blessed forever. Amen.

6But it is not as though the word of God has failed. For not all who are descended from Israel belong to Israel, 7and not all are children of Abraham because they are his offspring, but “Through Isaac shall your offspring be named.” 8This means that it is not the children of the flesh who are the children of God, but the children of the promise are counted as offspring. 9For this is what the promise said: “About this time next year I will return, and Sarah shall have a son.” 10And not only so, but also when Rebekah had conceived children by one man, our forefather Isaac, 11though they were not yet born and had done nothing either good or bad—in order that God’s purpose of election might continue, not because of works but because of him who calls— 12she was told, “The older will serve the younger.” 13As it is written, “Jacob I loved, but Esau I hated.”

14What shall we say then? Is there injustice on God’s part? By no means! 15For he says to Moses, “I will have mercy on whom I have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I have compassion.” 16So then it depends not on human will or exertion,b but on God, who has mercy. 17For the Scripture says to Pharaoh, “For this very purpose I have raised you up, that I might show my power in you, and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth.” 18So then he has mercy on whomever he wills, and he hardens whomever he wills.

19You will say to me then, “Why does he still find fault? For who can resist his will?” 20But who are you, O man, to answer back to God? Will what is molded say to its molder, “Why have you made me like this?” 21Has the potter no right over the clay, to make out of the same lump one vessel for honorable use and another for dishonorable use? 22What if God, desiring to show his wrath and to make known his power, has endured with much patience vessels of wrath prepared for destruction, 23in order to make known the riches of his glory for vessels of mercy, which he has prepared beforehand for glory— 24even us whom he has called, not from the Jews only but also from the Gentiles? 25As indeed he says in Hosea,

“Those who were not my people I will call ‘my people,’
and her who was not beloved I will call ‘beloved.’”
26“And in the very place where it was said to them, ‘You are not my people,’
there they will be called ‘sons of the living God.’”

27And Isaiah cries out concerning Israel: “Though the number of the sons of Israelc be as the sand of the sea, only a remnant of them will be saved, 28for the Lord will carry out his sentence upon the earth fully and without delay.” 29And as Isaiah predicted,

“If the Lord of hosts had not left us offspring,
we would have been like Sodom
and become like Gomorrah.”

Israel’s Unbelief

30What shall we say, then? That Gentiles who did not pursue righteousness have attained it, that is, a righteousness that is by faith; 31but that Israel who pursued a law that would lead to righteousness did not succeed in reaching that law. 32Why? Because they did not pursue it by faith, but as if it were based on works. They have stumbled over the stumbling stone, 33as it is written,

“Behold, I am laying in Zion a stone of stumbling, and a rock of offense;
and whoever believes in him will not be put to shame.”

http://biblehub.com/esv/romans/9.htm

but it seems that is only about election/predestination, where these verses are all about equality:

http://www.openbible.info/topics/equality

http://www.openbible.info/topics/equal_rights

http://www.gotquestions.org/human-rights.html

so if we follow the logic to the end, if we say we are for the bible, then we are for equality of man, if we are for equality, then we are for equal rights for all men….regardless of color, gender, sexual orientation, geographical location, etc.

Even if we say, well sexual orientation is not like color or gender equality because it is a sin.

Well, so then follow that out and we have  no equality for the addict, the pedophile, the porn star, the drunk, the pharisee, etc.

And regardless of what you may think of a particular sin, all man should be treated equal, right?

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In this world we should treat all men equal, it is our responsibility, our job, our right and our expectation for our Lord.

In the next world, God will be the judge and the equalizer. We need not to worry but to love.

 

 

Musings on…. being a Deacon’s Wife

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12/19/2014

I pulled some verses about being a deacon, and added to that, a deacon’s wife. I bolded the parts I thought pertained to the wife.

Of course everything that pertains to a deacon should pertain to his wife, they are both servants of the Most High God.

I thought about going over this ‘list’ and typing what what I thought I was doing well at, being a deacon’s wife.

BUT there wasn’t much I could type.

Sidenote: I write this post to remind myself or convict myself of what I need to do better or pray for…. since my husband is on ‘deacon sabbatical’ because he couldn’t control his wife.

[good article from Grace to You]

1 Timothy 3:8-13 ESV

Deacons likewise must be dignified, not double-tongued, not addicted to much wine, not greedy for dishonest gain. They must hold the mystery of the faith with a clear conscience. And let them also be tested first; then let them serve as deacons if they prove themselves blameless. Their wives likewise must be dignified, not slanderers, but sober-minded, faithful in all things. Let deacons each be the husband of one wife, managing their children and their own households well.

Acts 6:1-6 ESV

Now in these days when the disciples were increasing in number, a complaint by the Hellenists arose against the Hebrews because their widows were being neglected in the daily distribution. And the twelve summoned the full number of the disciples and said, “It is not right that we should give up preaching the word of God to serve tables. Therefore, brothers, pick out from among you seven men of good repute, full of the Spirit and of wisdom, whom we will appoint to this duty. But we will devote ourselves to prayer and to the ministry of the word.” And what they said pleased the whole gathering, and they chose Stephen, a man full of faith and of the Holy Spirit, and Philip, and Prochorus, and Nicanor, and Timon, and Parmenas, and Nicolaus, a proselyte of Antioch.

1 Timothy 3:1-13 ESV

The saying is trustworthy: If anyone aspires to the office of overseer, he desires a noble task. Therefore an overseer must be above reproach, the husband of one wife, sober-minded, self-controlled, respectable, hospitable, able to teach, not a drunkard, not violent but gentle, not quarrelsome, not a lover of money. He must manage his own household well, with all dignity keeping his children submissive, for if someone does not know how to manage his own household, how will he care for God’s church?

John 12:26 ESV

If anyone serves me, he must follow me; and where I am, there will my servant be also. If anyone serves me, the Father will honor him.

Titus 1:6-9 ESV

If anyone is above reproach, the husband of one wife, and his children are believers and not open to the charge of debauchery or insubordination. For an overseer, as God’s steward, must be above reproach. He must not be arrogant or quick-tempered or a drunkard or violent or greedy for gain, but hospitable, a lover of good, self-controlled, upright, holy, and disciplined. He must hold firm to the trustworthy word as taught, so that he may be able to give instruction in sound doctrine and also to rebuke those who contradict it.

Acts 20:28 ESV

Pay careful attention to yourselves and to all the flock, in which the Holy Spirit has made you overseers, to care for the church of God, which he obtained with his own blood.

1 Timothy 3:2 ESV

Therefore an overseer must be above reproach, the husband of one wife, sober-minded, self-controlled, respectable, hospitable, able to teach,

Romans 12:1 ESV / 3 helpful votes

I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.

1 Timothy 2:8-15
8 I desire then that in every place the men should pray, lifting holy hands without anger or quarreling; 9 likewise also that women should adorn themselves in respectable apparel, with modesty and self-control, not with braided hair and gold or pearls or costly attire, 10 but with what is proper for women who profess godliness—with good works. 11 Let a woman learn quietly with all submissiveness. 12 I do not permit a woman to teach or to exercise authority over a man; rather, she is to remain quiet. 13 For Adam was formed first, then Eve; 14 and Adam was not deceived, but the woman was deceived and became a transgressor. 15 Yet she will be saved through childbearing—if they continue in faith and love and holiness, with self-control.

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1/1/2015

I have had this post in my ‘drafts’ folder for a while now.  Everytime I try to write about it, I get mad. And sad.

I have never been the normal deacons wife. I am not like any of the other deacons wives.  I am an oxymoron of sorts. To look at me would be to see a crazy casual non traditional [read tattooed, pierced, hair colored or dreaded, bit overweight, pants wearing, farm animal owning ] woman. I don’t go for fashion, I go for comfort and modesty. I am heavily tatted but not heavily ornamented, i.e. manicures, trimmed hair or brows, lots of jewelry, etc.

My theology is really conservative, Calvinistic, reformed and bible based. But you wouldn’t know it by my looks or my family. I believe in the words of the bible being God’s words, but I tend to not push them on others. I have no qualms about speaking what I believe, writing out things I struggle with and giving freely. I believe in the church being in community with the community, with families learning how to preach/teach/show the gospel, to be open to sharing their lives with non-believers. To have one on one discipleship and group evangelicalism.

I fight for the underdog, I love animals more than people, I take anti depressants, I see a counselor, my marriage isn’t perfect by far. I tend to rest on the negative side of life and forget my joy. I drink too much, cuss too much and I eat too much. I feel too much. I tend to think all people think like me [boy, do I ever get shocked when I find out they don’t]. I tend to live in extremes. I tend to think highly of people and then get disappointed by them when they turn out to be…just sinful people. Just. like. me.

Earlier this year I was [and still am] struggling with some issues with my church from the past. Some of my closest friends are involved and I have gone about things in the wrong way. I’m not sure I can or want to apologize for anything I said and I am not sure anything I said was wrong, I just said them out of turn and not in a nice way. I was told I was disparaging the church and leadership of the church in a not-so-nice meeting to discuss what could be done at the church so things that happened in the past would not be repeated.

I went visiting other churches and my husband who was a deacon, and a damn good one at that,  got put on sabbatical because he could not control his wife. I’m not quite sure if he was put on because I was visiting other churches or because I stood up and addressed the council [even opposed them in a way] maybe both.  I have been repeatedly chastised for being honest about myself and people around me, including my church, in my blog writing.

When my hubby was asked to be a deacon he made it quite clear that he could not control me and was fine with it. He understood where I was coming from and felt that the good things I did way overpowered the bad. The council understood that and I guess was ok with it as long as it wasn’t directed negatively toward the church.

I cannot change the things that were done wrong in the past, I can only strive to stir the hearts of the leadership to make changes for the better in the church.

I cannot change how things were done in the past where my long-time friends are concerned and I can only hope and pray no more damage will be done and that I can get over things [that really didn’t even have to do with me personally] I should actually mind my own business and not worry about what happens to others, right? I should really just come to terms with the fact that people who I thought were my elders in spiritual and earthly things can and, in fact, do make wrong decisions [even if they are only wrong in my head]

My husband is patiently waiting out some leadership decisions and I am standing with one foot out of the door. Maybe I just need to come to terms with all this in my head and my heart before long. Yeah probably.

Would I be a different deacons wife if my husband got reinstated? Nope. Is that a good thing?

 

 

 

Musings on…. Life in my 40’s

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People say their 20’s was a life changing experiences, but this momma will have to say that my 40’s have been the craziest and life changing…to say the least.

I was into all kinds of debauchery in my 20’s. psst…everyone does it, sowing the wild oats, drinking, drugging, partying… blah,blah, blah. But my 40’s….man….crazy.

As I head into my 50’s decade, I’m gonna try to look back on this past decade and see what the hell I have done. I wish I had a big calendar that I wrote all the stuff I did so I could look back.

But maybe its good there isn’t any paper trail. turned 40 in 2004.

Joined Facebook in 2008. Started blog in 2007. Became a vegetarian/vegan in 2008. Lost 30 lbs doing body for Life in 2007. Weight has yo-yo’ed ever since.

Only had 2 tattoos, now I have upwards of 15 which includes a half-sleeve.

We only had one dog and 3 cats, now we have 3 dogs and a pig. gone through lots of animals, lost my heart to each and every one of them. I had two things I wanted to accomplish before I died. Knitting and ride a motorcycle. Did both in my 40’s. Own a pretty little Rebel right now and more yarn than I know what to do with.

Had a son late in life, at 28. Got married late in life, 32. Son has gone thru so much and so have we. My 40’s have been full of heartache for/with this kid.

I homeschooled my child for a year. Never EVER thought I could do it, but do it we did.

At 44 I was left to become something other than a stay-at-home mom. So I started a critter care business. kristinascrittercare.com It’s been amazing to say the least. So many wonderful animals and human clients.

Haha, never been high in my life, so i thought i would try that. It’s legal where I live. I hate to smoke and never have, so i ate it. Trippy. different from drinking, but the same. Just want my thoughts to stop and relax, altho the pot does let me relax, my brain still goes and I have the weirdest dreams.

Started this blog in my 40’s. It’s been one, if not the best way to do therapy.

Put my big girl panties on and went to IOWA to meet strangers, all by myself, in my 40’s. Best thing I ever did. I love Doug and Micaela so much.

Went on my first mission trip in my 40’s. To the Yakama Indian Reservation. Made many new friends that I will treasure forever. Had many craft fails, I get a little OCD and try many different crafts, much to the chagrin of my hubbys pocketbook.

Did a trial test thingy for the drug Abilify for about a year. It was pretty interesting and I still don’t know if I was taking the Abilify or a placebo.

I had dreads for about 3 years, off and on, always got to a point where I couldn’t wash them every day and they wouldn’t dry fast enough. I also got my first case of lice!!

Had nose surgery this past year. It was the most horrifying thing to not be able to breathe for two weeks. I have had all my woman parts yanked out and a ruptured disc fixed.

Thinking of going to school for vet tech, so I can transition into a desk job someday when I am unable to walk. lol.

 

And many many other things I cannot recall right now.

Hopefully my 50’s will be a bit more mellow and I can rest in the Lord more and more, knowing He holds my life in His hands.