Category Archives: church

Just Some Stuff to Throw up Here ~ July Edition

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Hey. Been super busy with school. School is for kids, kids with minds that still work, backs that are still strong to sit for long periods, and lives that only include school. lol

Biology really got me thinking about evolution and science and the bible and christian faith. There was a bit of a discussion on Fb that got a bit heated over whether dinosaurs were in the bible and if they aren’t then how do we square up the bible and science?

But when I questioned it, I was immediately told I was having problems with my faith and would be prayed for. thanks?

Since I’m pretty sure God allows us to think and study and have free will, I don’t feel I’m floundering in any way but I feel questioning and even asking God is good for the body and soul.

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A couple of pages I saved on FB to share:

http://www.challies.com/articles/do-you-believe-god-will-save-your-kids

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1BpB3p/www.social-consciousness.com/2013/11/121-documentaries-to-expand-your-consciousness.html?ref_src=fb

I love documentaries, all kinds.

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To say that God is testing me is an understatement. This trial brings me to tears. I think what God is trying to tell me through this is that I don’t depend on God, I don’t look to God, I don’t worship God… I do all those things to my son. And I placed a HUGE burden on him. He needed to be my child, that was all, not my idol. So broken over that.

Its been a hard lesson that I am still learning. Praying the lessons God is teaching my son will bring him back. Back to God.

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http://www.king5.com/news/absolutely-wrong-bill-nye-the-science-guy-takes-on-noahs-ark-exhibit/275442854

Saw this on FB today and am so so disappointed in all this. This creation is a travesty. Waste of money, time and resources, just to be an attraction to Ken Ham’s museums? I see this as no different from Joel Osteen’s mega church or the TBN cronies.

Ugh, the comments. Makes Christians look vile, silly and uneducated.

The last sentence…. As for the ark property itself, it’s not done expanding. Ham said plans for a walled city and Tower of Babel — intended to warn against the dangers of “prejudice and racism” — will be part of a future phase. 

BECAUSE THAT WORKED WELL THE FIRST TIME, EH?

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Small book review. Life Together by Dietrich Bonhoeffer

My friend and I were talking about community and how churches sometimes miss the mark on how community works so He graciously bought me this book to read. It’s a very well written treatise on christian community. My first thoughts were DUH we all should be doing this! He paints a family picture of a whole day spent in community; prayer, worship, work, confession and adoration for God.

We, in America, strive so hard for autonomy, that we lose the wonder of togetherness…in our churches, homes and cities. We forget we are connected to others, even globally.

Groups of people [churches, cities, bevys]  try so hard to be right, or correct or separate that we turn aside and almost hate others not included in that group. So sad. Everyone should read this book, especially leaders of groups.

That is all for now. Back to writing a research paper on GMO’s!

 

Musings on…. My Dream Ministry

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I am going through the Penn Foster Veterinary Technician program online. 50 years old and going back to college. not so easy.

Perfectionism is killing my vibe.

But lately my dreams are leading me in a different direction. The idea of a clearinghouse for stuff comes to mind.

A place to have tables set up for different ministries that want different things.

Crayon Initiative, Operation Christmas Child, eyeglass ministry, bible and book ministry. Foster care ministries.

I picture a huge front room with tables in a circle with the different ministries advertising on the tables, boxes and brochures, lists of items needed.

I picture a website with the ministries and items wanted, hours open and requirements for the ministry.

This wouldn’t be open to the public unless the ministry did a food or clothes pantry and they were there to organize the pick ups.

Ministries would have to pick up donations weekly or when needed and we would have hours that people could drop their items off.

I’m thinking noon to 9, Tuesday through Saturday.

We would need volunteers for manning the bldg. Money for rent, utilities, and postage for the ministries that are not in state/town.

The ministries would be anything…animal related, religious or not, people, here, in country, out of country.

Bonus!

My son has a desire to have a bldg for nonprofits to rent an office space for little rent.

If we could find a bldg that did both, that would be super.

Even a house type setting would be good, or a warehouse. I’m not sure what would work the best.

I don’t really know where to begin… I’m thinking of contacting some ministries that I am interested in and having them send over some artwork or tri fold or info for the website and table.

Then just use my house or garage, altho hubby doesn’t want me to use garage.

Sigh, why can’t I just have unlimited income to get this started?

Let me know your thoughts!!

Here is a link to the ministry page

Hope Mercantile Collective

 

Psalm 139

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Psalm 139

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
    you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
    and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
    your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
    and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
    for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you.

19 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
    Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
    your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
    and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
    I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting.

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Amen and amen!

True Fasting… A Reminder from My Missions Trip

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Isaiah 58 

True Fasting

58 “Shout it aloud, do not hold back.
    Raise your voice like a trumpet.
Declare to my people their rebellion
    and to the descendants of Jacob their sins.
For day after day they seek me out;
    they seem eager to know my ways,
as if they were a nation that does what is right
    and has not forsaken the commands of its God.
They ask me for just decisions
    and seem eager for God to come near them.
‘Why have we fasted,’ they say,
    ‘and you have not seen it?
Why have we humbled ourselves,
    and you have not noticed?’

“Yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you please
    and exploit all your workers.
Your fasting ends in quarreling and strife,
    and in striking each other with wicked fists.
You cannot fast as you do today
    and expect your voice to be heard on high.
Is this the kind of fast I have chosen,
    only a day for people to humble themselves?
Is it only for bowing one’s head like a reed
    and for lying in sackcloth and ashes?
Is that what you call a fast,
    a day acceptable to the Lord?

“Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen:
to loose the chains of injustice
    and untie the cords of the yoke,
to set the oppressed free
    and break every yoke?
Is it not to share your food with the hungry
    and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter—
when you see the naked, to clothe them,
    and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?
Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
    and your healing will quickly appear;
then your righteousness will go before you,
    and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard.
Then you will call, and the Lord will answer;
    you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I.

“If you do away with the yoke of oppression,
    with the pointing finger and malicious talk,
10 and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry
    and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,
then your light will rise in the darkness,
    and your night will become like the noonday.
11 The Lord will guide you always;
    he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
    and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
    like a spring whose waters never fail.
12 Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins
    and will raise up the age-old foundations;
you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls,
    Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.

13 “If you keep your feet from breaking the Sabbath
    and from doing as you please on my holy day,
if you call the Sabbath a delight
    and the Lord’s holy day honorable,
and if you honor it by not going your own way
    and not doing as you please or speaking idle words,
14 then you will find your joy in the Lord,
    and I will cause you to ride in triumph on the heights of the land
    and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob.”
For the mouth of the Lord has spoken.

Musings on…. being a Deacon’s Wife

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12/19/2014

I pulled some verses about being a deacon, and added to that, a deacon’s wife. I bolded the parts I thought pertained to the wife.

Of course everything that pertains to a deacon should pertain to his wife, they are both servants of the Most High God.

I thought about going over this ‘list’ and typing what what I thought I was doing well at, being a deacon’s wife.

BUT there wasn’t much I could type.

Sidenote: I write this post to remind myself or convict myself of what I need to do better or pray for…. since my husband is on ‘deacon sabbatical’ because he couldn’t control his wife.

[good article from Grace to You]

1 Timothy 3:8-13 ESV

Deacons likewise must be dignified, not double-tongued, not addicted to much wine, not greedy for dishonest gain. They must hold the mystery of the faith with a clear conscience. And let them also be tested first; then let them serve as deacons if they prove themselves blameless. Their wives likewise must be dignified, not slanderers, but sober-minded, faithful in all things. Let deacons each be the husband of one wife, managing their children and their own households well.

Acts 6:1-6 ESV

Now in these days when the disciples were increasing in number, a complaint by the Hellenists arose against the Hebrews because their widows were being neglected in the daily distribution. And the twelve summoned the full number of the disciples and said, “It is not right that we should give up preaching the word of God to serve tables. Therefore, brothers, pick out from among you seven men of good repute, full of the Spirit and of wisdom, whom we will appoint to this duty. But we will devote ourselves to prayer and to the ministry of the word.” And what they said pleased the whole gathering, and they chose Stephen, a man full of faith and of the Holy Spirit, and Philip, and Prochorus, and Nicanor, and Timon, and Parmenas, and Nicolaus, a proselyte of Antioch.

1 Timothy 3:1-13 ESV

The saying is trustworthy: If anyone aspires to the office of overseer, he desires a noble task. Therefore an overseer must be above reproach, the husband of one wife, sober-minded, self-controlled, respectable, hospitable, able to teach, not a drunkard, not violent but gentle, not quarrelsome, not a lover of money. He must manage his own household well, with all dignity keeping his children submissive, for if someone does not know how to manage his own household, how will he care for God’s church?

John 12:26 ESV

If anyone serves me, he must follow me; and where I am, there will my servant be also. If anyone serves me, the Father will honor him.

Titus 1:6-9 ESV

If anyone is above reproach, the husband of one wife, and his children are believers and not open to the charge of debauchery or insubordination. For an overseer, as God’s steward, must be above reproach. He must not be arrogant or quick-tempered or a drunkard or violent or greedy for gain, but hospitable, a lover of good, self-controlled, upright, holy, and disciplined. He must hold firm to the trustworthy word as taught, so that he may be able to give instruction in sound doctrine and also to rebuke those who contradict it.

Acts 20:28 ESV

Pay careful attention to yourselves and to all the flock, in which the Holy Spirit has made you overseers, to care for the church of God, which he obtained with his own blood.

1 Timothy 3:2 ESV

Therefore an overseer must be above reproach, the husband of one wife, sober-minded, self-controlled, respectable, hospitable, able to teach,

Romans 12:1 ESV / 3 helpful votes

I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.

1 Timothy 2:8-15
8 I desire then that in every place the men should pray, lifting holy hands without anger or quarreling; 9 likewise also that women should adorn themselves in respectable apparel, with modesty and self-control, not with braided hair and gold or pearls or costly attire, 10 but with what is proper for women who profess godliness—with good works. 11 Let a woman learn quietly with all submissiveness. 12 I do not permit a woman to teach or to exercise authority over a man; rather, she is to remain quiet. 13 For Adam was formed first, then Eve; 14 and Adam was not deceived, but the woman was deceived and became a transgressor. 15 Yet she will be saved through childbearing—if they continue in faith and love and holiness, with self-control.

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1/1/2015

I have had this post in my ‘drafts’ folder for a while now.  Everytime I try to write about it, I get mad. And sad.

I have never been the normal deacons wife. I am not like any of the other deacons wives.  I am an oxymoron of sorts. To look at me would be to see a crazy casual non traditional [read tattooed, pierced, hair colored or dreaded, bit overweight, pants wearing, farm animal owning ] woman. I don’t go for fashion, I go for comfort and modesty. I am heavily tatted but not heavily ornamented, i.e. manicures, trimmed hair or brows, lots of jewelry, etc.

My theology is really conservative, Calvinistic, reformed and bible based. But you wouldn’t know it by my looks or my family. I believe in the words of the bible being God’s words, but I tend to not push them on others. I have no qualms about speaking what I believe, writing out things I struggle with and giving freely. I believe in the church being in community with the community, with families learning how to preach/teach/show the gospel, to be open to sharing their lives with non-believers. To have one on one discipleship and group evangelicalism.

I fight for the underdog, I love animals more than people, I take anti depressants, I see a counselor, my marriage isn’t perfect by far. I tend to rest on the negative side of life and forget my joy. I drink too much, cuss too much and I eat too much. I feel too much. I tend to think all people think like me [boy, do I ever get shocked when I find out they don’t]. I tend to live in extremes. I tend to think highly of people and then get disappointed by them when they turn out to be…just sinful people. Just. like. me.

Earlier this year I was [and still am] struggling with some issues with my church from the past. Some of my closest friends are involved and I have gone about things in the wrong way. I’m not sure I can or want to apologize for anything I said and I am not sure anything I said was wrong, I just said them out of turn and not in a nice way. I was told I was disparaging the church and leadership of the church in a not-so-nice meeting to discuss what could be done at the church so things that happened in the past would not be repeated.

I went visiting other churches and my husband who was a deacon, and a damn good one at that,  got put on sabbatical because he could not control his wife. I’m not quite sure if he was put on because I was visiting other churches or because I stood up and addressed the council [even opposed them in a way] maybe both.  I have been repeatedly chastised for being honest about myself and people around me, including my church, in my blog writing.

When my hubby was asked to be a deacon he made it quite clear that he could not control me and was fine with it. He understood where I was coming from and felt that the good things I did way overpowered the bad. The council understood that and I guess was ok with it as long as it wasn’t directed negatively toward the church.

I cannot change the things that were done wrong in the past, I can only strive to stir the hearts of the leadership to make changes for the better in the church.

I cannot change how things were done in the past where my long-time friends are concerned and I can only hope and pray no more damage will be done and that I can get over things [that really didn’t even have to do with me personally] I should actually mind my own business and not worry about what happens to others, right? I should really just come to terms with the fact that people who I thought were my elders in spiritual and earthly things can and, in fact, do make wrong decisions [even if they are only wrong in my head]

My husband is patiently waiting out some leadership decisions and I am standing with one foot out of the door. Maybe I just need to come to terms with all this in my head and my heart before long. Yeah probably.

Would I be a different deacons wife if my husband got reinstated? Nope. Is that a good thing?

 

 

 

Musings on….. On Guard Preventing and Responding to Child Abuse at Church

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9781939946515m

from here

This book. Is everything I wanted to say to our church but couldn’t articulate.

A bit of background. Hubby and I went to our church council to talk about putting some safeguards in place and having some more resources available for kids and parents affected by child abuse. This book deals with sexual abuse. Mostly by an adult to a child. In a church setting.

We tried to come up with plan for prevention and a plan for responding. We, as fallen humans, sucked at trying to get the importance of the message across.

This book states in plain terms what we only couldn’t formulate even in our minds.

I bought the council members each a book and I devoured the book in a night.

The book discusses the importance of stewardship of children, the types of predators, the false assumptions we make about predators and asks the question “Why the church”?

The numbers and statistics shown in the book would astound the average person.

Probably the best sentence “..We must remember our high calling as parents, pastors, and children’s ministry workers – the God five charge to love, protect, and shepherd children under our care.’ [pg 11]

Creating a child protection policy is one thing we want to see happen in our church, background checks, also. This book gives an outline on how to begin to write out a policy and guidelines for background checks.

A check in and check out policy for the youth/kids groups/nursery. Being a member first before becoming involved in church ministry. Putting windowed doors or making dutch doors on class rooms. When sunday school is over, lock up all the doors. Train all volunteers.

Preparing before it happens means pastors/leaders being humble in caring and planning. Parents who are vigilant and understand the importance. Teens and kids, and even parents, going thru a class/curriculum on child safety AND sex.

there is a whole chapter on getting to know your community and resources. God-given resources that a church should look toward to help victims and abusers. Churches aren’t usually equipped to give specialized help to individuals.

The next few chapters deal with responding to an abuse that has already happened.

I plan on going through the endnotes and look at some of the reference material he used in the book.

I would love to have my church, your church, any and all churches read this book, prayerfully consider the importance of loving, protecting and teaching our kids.

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a couple things I found online:

wrfnet.org

child molestation prevention 

minibook

gospel coalition article [good quick read]

When the child abuser has a bible 

clergy as Mandatory reporters