Musings on…. Me Minus Prozac

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I thought it would take longer than this….

me getting to the point where I want to kill EVERYONE and EVERYTHING!

Its so sad that I feel I have to take a pill to put up with everyone around me.

I know there is are better ways. I am just too damn angry to try them.

Why should I take a pill so the people in my family who do stupid/sinful/childish things seem less stressful to me?

Is it me that is too critical, or them being idiots?

I’m told by one member that I am too extreme and what they do is not wrong, just being playful, funny, but to me its hurtful/disrespectful and downright irritating.

I am told that they’re not going to change, not get help to change and I am just going to have to deal with it. Or get out.

I am told that this is the way they were made so I cannot have my own opinions/thoughts/convictions/beliefs about it.

I am told ‘can we please just be quiet and let the big ass elephant sit in the corner? ‘[true quote, people!]

My emotions are back, back with a revengeance. Crying and laughing and smiling are good. Tension filled anger is not.

I think I may have to do some really really hard stuff in the near future for my sanity. For everyone else’s sanity.

 

 

 

 

 

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About Kristina

52 year old Christian lady, knitter, crafter, church admin, thrill seeker (only when shopping at thrift stores for tremendous bargains) my 3 dogs and my pigs servant, a child of God, saved, redeemed and trying to be joyful in a fallen world.

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