So, its been 5 + years since the big awakening/incident with family and I really really need to get back into life.
I’ve gained 30 pounds, hid away in my house, only going out to work or church. Dropped all outside activities, bible studies and started menopause.
It that doesn’t throw someone way off, i don’t know what will.
I had been throwing myself into the ‘learning’ of homosexuality, questioning the bible and Jesus’ authenticity, taking prozac and reacting heavily on my circumstances and not my God.
So, now is the time…
I have been on the Love INC board for a few months now, just got voted VP and will start mentoring for Jobs for Life.
I cut off my dreads. Contemplating another tattoo.
Starting sunday school class, a book about the minor prophets and 5 weeks ago started an exercise program.
Also going to start back up on my hormone therapy. I am so tired of hot flashes, sweating and a wonderful thing I like to call ‘menopause brain’. It sucks. If I get breast cancer, then I do.
I can not let my family/circumstances run/ruin my life.
I can not let life pass me by.
scripture verses from here
God Is In Control
Proverbs 19:21 ESV / 269 helpful votes
Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.
Romans 8:28 ESV / 170 helpful votes
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.
Isaiah 45:6-7 ESV / 121 helpful votes
That people may know, from the rising of the sun and from the west, that there is none besides me; I am the Lord, and there is no other. I form light and create darkness, I make well-being and create calamity, I am the Lord, who does all these things.
Jeremiah 29:11 ESV / 108 helpful votes
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Matthew 19:26 ESV / 99 helpful votes
But Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
Joshua 1:9 ESV / 99 helpful votes
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
Matthew 6:34 ESV / 85 helpful votes
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Psalm 22:28 ESV / 66 helpful votes
For kingship belongs to the Lord, and he rules over the nations.
Proverbs 16:4 ESV / 62 helpful votes
The Lord has made everything for its purpose, even the wicked for the day of trouble.
Isaiah 55:8-11 ESV / 56 helpful votes
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. “For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven and do not return there but water the earth, making it bring forth and sprout, giving seed to the sower and bread to the eater, so shall my word be that goes out from my mouth; it shall not return to me empty, but it shall accomplish that which I purpose, and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it.
Ephesians 1:11 ESV / 55 helpful votes
In him we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to the purpose of him who works all things according to the counsel of his will,
Psalm 115:3 ESV / 54 helpful votes
Our God is in the heavens; he does all that he pleases.
1 Chronicles 29:11 ESV / 46 helpful votes
Yours, O Lord, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the victory and the majesty, for all that is in the heavens and in the earth is yours. Yours is the kingdom, O Lord, and you are exalted as head above all.
Job 12:10 ESV / 42 helpful votes
In his hand is the life of every living thing and the breath of all mankind.
Isaiah 45:7 ESV / 38 helpful votes
I form light and create darkness, I make well-being and create calamity, I am the Lord, who does all these things.
Isaiah 41:10 ESV / 35 helpful votes
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Proverbs 16:9 ESV / 32 helpful votes
The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.
Jeremiah 10:6-10 ESV / 31 helpful votes
There is none like you, O Lord; you are great, and your name is great in might. Who would not fear you, O King of the nations? For this is your due; for among all the wise ones of the nations and in all their kingdoms there is none like you. They are both stupid and foolish; the instruction of idols is but wood! Beaten silver is brought from Tarshish, and gold from Uphaz. They are the work of the craftsman and of the hands of the goldsmith; their clothing is violet and purple; they are all the work of skilled men. But the Lord is the true God; he is the living God and the everlasting King. At his wrath the earth quakes, and the nations cannot endure his indignation.
Hebrews 2:8 ESV / 25 helpful votes
Putting everything in subjection under his feet.” Now in putting everything in subjection to him, he left nothing outside his control. At present, we do not yet see everything in subjection to him.
1 Corinthians 10:13 ESV / 24 helpful votes
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
Romans 9:21 ESV / 24 helpful votes
Has the potter no right over the clay, to make out of the same lump one vessel for honorable use and another for dishonorable use?
Matthew 10:29 ESV / 22 helpful votes
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father.
Exodus 9:16 ESV / 22 helpful votes
But for this purpose I have raised you up, to show you my power, so that my name may be proclaimed in all the earth.
Proverbs 21:1 ESV / 21 helpful votes
The king’s heart is a stream of water in the hand of the Lord; he turns it wherever he will.
Psalm 99:1-9 ESV / 20 helpful votes
The Lord reigns; let the peoples tremble! He sits enthroned upon the cherubim; let the earth quake! The Lord is great in Zion; he is exalted over all the peoples. Let them praise your great and awesome name! Holy is he! The King in his might loves justice. You have established equity; you have executed justice and righteousness in Jacob. Exalt the Lord our God; worship at his footstool! Holy is he! …
Revelation 4:11 ESV / 19 helpful votes
“Worthy are you, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they existed and were created.”
Daniel 4:35 ESV / 19 helpful votes
All the inhabitants of the earth are accounted as nothing, and he does according to his will among the host of heaven and among the inhabitants of the earth; and none can stay his hand or say to him, “What have you done?”
Psalm 24:1 ESV / 19 helpful votes
A Psalm of David. The earth is the Lord’s and the fullness thereof, the world and those who dwell therein,
Genesis 50:20 ESV / 17 helpful votes
As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today.
2 Chronicles 20:5-12 ESV / 16 helpful votes
And Jehoshaphat stood in the assembly of Judah and Jerusalem, in the house of the Lord, before the new court, and said, “O Lord, God of our fathers, are you not God in heaven? You rule over all the kingdoms of the nations. In your hand are power and might, so that none is able to withstand you. Did you not, our God, drive out the inhabitants of this land before your people Israel, and give it forever to the descendants of Abraham your friend? And they have lived in it and have built for you in it a sanctuary for your name, saying, ‘If disaster comes upon us, the sword, judgment, or pestilence, or famine, we will stand before this house and before you—for your name is in this house—and cry out to you in our affliction, and you will hear and save.’ …
Revelation 1:8 ESV / 15 helpful votes
“I am the Alpha and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “who is and who was and who is to come, the Almighty.”
Acts 2:23 ESV / 15 helpful votes
This Jesus, delivered up according to the definite plan and foreknowledge of God, you crucified and killed by the hands of lawless men.
Isaiah 14:24 ESV / 15 helpful votes
The Lord of hosts has sworn: “As I have planned, so shall it be, and as I have purposed, so shall it stand,
1 John 1:5 ESV / 13 helpful votes
This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all.
1 Corinthians 14:33 ESV / 12 helpful votes
For God is not a God of confusion but of peace. As in all the churches of the saints,
Isaiah 14:27 ESV / 12 helpful votes
For the Lord of hosts has purposed, and who will annul it? His hand is stretched out, and who will turn it back?
John 14:6 ESV / 11 helpful votes
Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
Psalm 37:23 ESV / 11 helpful votes
The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when he delights in his way;
Psalm 3:1-8 ESV / 11 helpful votes
A Psalm of David, when he fled from Absalom his son. O Lord, how many are my foes! Many are rising against me; many are saying of my soul, there is no salvation for him in God. Selah But you, O Lord, are a shield about me, my glory, and the lifter of my head. I cried aloud to the Lord, and he answered me from his holy hill. Selah I lay down and slept; I woke again, for the Lord sustained me. …
Deuteronomy 33:26-29 ESV / 11 helpful votes
“There is none like God, O Jeshurun, who rides through the heavens to your help, through the skies in his majesty. The eternal God is your dwelling place, and underneath are the everlasting arms. And he thrust out the enemy before you and said, Destroy. So Israel lived in safety, Jacob lived alone, in a land of grain and wine, whose heavens drop down dew. Happy are you, O Israel! Who is like you, a people saved by the Lord, the shield of your help, and the sword of your triumph! Your enemies shall come fawning to you, and you shall tread upon their backs.”
Proverbs 29:26 ESV / 10 helpful votes
Many seek the face of a ruler, but it is from the Lord that a man gets justice.
Joshua 24:15 ESV / 10 helpful votes
And if it is evil in your eyes to serve the Lord, choose this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your fathers served in the region beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you dwell. But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.”
Revelation 1:17-18 ESV / 9 helpful votes
When I saw him, I fell at his feet as though dead. But he laid his right hand on me, saying, “Fear not, I am the first and the last, and the living one. I died, and behold I am alive forevermore, and I have the keys of Death and Hades.
James 1:13 ESV / 9 helpful votes
Let no one say when he is tempted, “I am being tempted by God,” for God cannot be tempted with evil, and he himself tempts no one.
Hebrews 1:3 ESV / 9 helpful votes
He is the radiance of the glory of God and the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power. After making purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high,
John 3:1-36 ESV / 9 helpful votes
Now there was a man of the Pharisees named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews. This man came to Jesus by night and said to him, “Rabbi, we know that you are a teacher come from God, for no one can do these signs that you do unless God is with him.” Jesus answered him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God.” Nicodemus said to him, “How can a man be born when he is old? Can he enter a second time into his mother’s womb and be born?” Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God. …
Revelation 21:22-24 ESV / 7 helpful votes
And I saw no temple in the city, for its temple is the Lord God the Almighty and the Lamb. And the city has no need of sun or moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and its lamp is the Lamb. By its light will the nations walk, and the kings of the earth will bring their glory into it,
Luke 21:8 ESV / 7 helpful votes
And he said, “See that you are not led astray. For many will come in my name, saying, ‘I am he!’ and, ‘The time is at hand!’ Do not go after them.
Matthew 25:41 ESV / 7 helpful votes
“Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels.
1 John 2:5 ESV / 5 helpful votes
But whoever keeps his word, in him truly the love of God is perfected. By this we may know that we are in him:
Luke 2:52 ESV / 5 helpful votes
And Jesus increased in wisdom and in stature and in favor with God and man.
John 17:17 ESV / 4 helpful votes
Sanctify them in the truth; your word is truth.
1 Samuel 2:6-7 ESV / 4 helpful votes
The Lord kills and brings to life; he brings down to Sheol and raises up. The Lord makes poor and makes rich; he brings low and he exalts.