I have been ruminating over a lot of posts lately. Most of them are controversial so I have been hesitant to post them.
As I wean myself off these antidepressants, my mind goes a buzzing, between mania and depression.
Between life sucks, life is boring, let’s get a tattoo, let’s get another piercing, let’s make something, go shopping, stay in bed…. etc.
I assume I do these things to set my mind thinking about them and not the crappy things in my life. Which is pretty much all in my mind.
A ‘woe is me’ attitude is sucking the life outta me and I gotta focus on:
New International Version (NIV)
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Even in pain, resentment and bitterness we can do this, it’s hard, because it’s so much easier to focus on the shitty stuff. The media focuses on it, see it on FB, it’s all around us, war, suffering, suing, eating people’s faces off, killing and SIN.
As a side note: I watch documentaries for the same reason, I guess. My life is in a pretty small box and seeing how other live interests me, or lets me forget about my little box.
Ok, so examples, how do we practically live this verse out. I’m sure there are much smarter people out there to give you advice, but I will throw some stuff out ….
Man is divorced, calls ex a monster, one might ask ”why did you marry her then if she is a monster?”, well, he didn’t know that back then. But he has ‘forgiven’ her. Hmmmm
Yeah, been thru some stuff, divorced, she acted crazy and now think on these things….. you had a good life together, forgiving is not forgetting but not bringing up the offense. When you bring up the bad stuff you are not thinking about these things [see above verse]
so many things to think about: a lesson learned in life, you loved her once, she has good qualities, only speak of them when talking about her. The ‘if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say it’ fits nicely here.
Learn what happened to make this relationship dissolve, then work on yourself to make it better..if there is to be a next time. Great time to ask God to show you your own faults, to weigh your own actions against the plumb line of God.
Nothing better to humble one and to see that the other really wasn’t a monster, but just another sinful sad soul that needs God just as much as the next [compassion, might be the word to use here]
So to wrap this up-
I was going with the mantra of:
“I’m 46 years old, I’m a christian, I’m consecrated, I’m set apart, I don’t need to act like the pagans [OT scripture], I don’t need hair coloring, God made me beautiful. I don’t need dreads, I need to glorify my God. I don’t need to use food/wine/etc for comfort, I need to know and rest in knowing God is salvation, my comfort, my strength, my life. I don’t need more holes in my ears, I need to focus on my God. I don’t need to be of this world, I need to show this world their need for the living Christ.”
Well, we shall see….. Ya’all keep me accountable. XOXO