Monthly Archives: August 2009

Musings on… Emotions


So I was pondering faith when overridden by emotion, how people will ride the wave of emotion when it comes to worship, God and religion.

Someone said since I hadn’t walked a mile in their shoes I could have no idea how their concept of God is and has changed. [circumstances changed in this scenario to protect–me]:)

While I have not walked a mile in many peoples shoes, I’m becoming much more familiar with other peoples ‘plights’ in life. Even tho I maybe do not know their particular burden, I’ve come to see burdens, and sins, are all the same, just wrapped in different paper, some prettier than others, but still the same.

My empathy grows with each new person I connect with and hear their struggles, especially if I’ve been given the same burden.

My heart breaks to hear people using their emotions to justify their sins.

“Well, God wants me to be happy, so I will divorce my spouse or have an affair”

“God doesn’t care who I love as long as I love, so my same sex attraction [given to me by God] is ok by Him”

“Gambling, eating, drinking is ok, because I’m sad, mad, happy, tired, etc”

“I’m not happy at my church because the music is so dirge-y, hip-hop-y, boring”

“There are no healings, talking tongues, acts of miracles, demon exorcising in this church”

“You are not healed of this addiction, cancer, injury, your faith is not strong enough”

“my life is out of control, I’m so lonely, everyone else is making me miserable, or everyone has it so much better than me”

Has anyone ever said any of these things?

I found this list and thought I would post it: from here

Scripture Dealing with Emotions


  • Proverbs 15:1
  • Matthew 5:21-26, 43-48
  • Ephesians 4:26,27,31,32
  • James 1:19-21


  • Psalm 25
  • Luke 12:22-31
  • John 14:1-7
  • 1 Peter 5:7
  • 1 John 4:13-18


  • Psalm 37
  • Ephesians 4:14
  • Colossians 2:8
  • 2 Thessalonians 2:1-17
  • 1 John 2:3-6; 4:1-3
  • Jude 3,4, 17-25


  • Psalms 16, 130
  • Lamentations 3:18-24
  • Romans 3:21-26; 5:1-11; 8:31-39
  • Ephesians 3:14-21
  • Hebrews 4:16


  • Psalm 55
  • Jeremiah 15:10-21
  • Matthew 5:1-12


  • Psalms 42, 43, 62
  • 2 Corinthians 1:3,4; 4:1-5:10
  • Philippians 3:12-16; 4:10-13


  • Psalms 8, 146
  • Proverbs 30:5
  • Mark 4:35-41
  • John 14:8-14; 20:24-29
  • James 1:5-8


  • Psalms 27, 46
  • Luke 12:4-7
  • John 6:16-21


  • Job 36:1-33
  • Matthew 7:7-11


  • Exodus 20:17
  • Proverbs 23:17; 27:4
  • Romans 13:11-14
  • 1 Corinthians 3:1-3
  • James 3:13-18


  • Psalm 22
  • John 10:14-16, 27-30; 14:15-21


  • Proverbs 18:9; 21:25,26
  • Matthew 25:1-13
  • Titus 3:14


  • Psalm 38
  • Isaiah 52:13-53:12
  • Matthew 9:9-13
  • John 15:18-16:4
  • Ephesians 1:3-14
  • 1 Peter 2:4-10


  • Leviticus 19:17,18
  • Isaiah 25:1-5
  • Matthew 5:38-42
  • Romans 12:17-21


  • Psalm 34
  • John 16:16-24
  • 2 Corinthians 1:3-6


  • Numbers 6:24-26
  • John 14:27
  • 1 Corinthians 1:3
  • Philippians 4:8,9
  • Colossians 3:1-4, 15


  • Isaiah 35; 40:28-31
  • Matthew 11:28-30


 Faith is an act of the will, not emotions, we can not be tossed to and fro by our emotions of how we feel our big and great God should be. We are to by faithful to Him and His Word.

 We can not live how ever we please and be pleasing to God.

We should not rearrange His Word to fit our life.

We should rearrange our life to obey His commands and desires for us.


Pulling Up the Grudge Weed



Above all else, remember that true forgiveness depends on God’s grace. If you try to forgive others on your own, you are in for a long and frustrating battle. But if you ask God to change your heart and you continually rely on his grace, you can forgive even the most painful offenses.

Taken from  The Peacemaker: A Biblical Guide to Resolving Personal Conflict
by Ken Sande, Updated Edition (Grand Rapids, Baker Books, 2003) pp. 217-218.

Food for Thought

His disregard for my wife sowed a seed of bitterness in my own heart.

My wife and I once attended a conference, and during one activity, we were split up and sent into separate groups for a simulation. During the “game,” a man crushed my wife’s spirit. Later as she told me about it with tears and pointed out the man across the meeting hall, I marked him in my mind and said to myself, “If that man ever applies to work with our organization, I will do everything in my power to keep him out.”

The seed of bitterness had sprouted.

Later that evening as we walked about for some fresh air, God brought fresh perspective. I realized that if I were to hold that grudge, I would be in error. First, I was assuming that my judgment of that man was correct. It was as if God was saying, “Leave that to me.” Second, I was assuming that my “sentence” was appropriate to his crime. Again, God seemed to whisper, “Leave that to me.” Finally, and most humbling, holding a grudge was like shaking my fist at Christ on the cross and shouting, “NO! It’s NOT finished! I have the right to make that man pay.”

When I realized what holding a grudge meant to my Savior, the grudge weed came up root and all.

—Scott Hayden
Bangkok, Thailand

A Life Lost



Today we were driving home from college and on Waller Road we saw people driving around something in the road opposite ours. I thought it was a piece of paper because part of it was flopping, like waving in the wind.

As we got closer I saw it was a cat who had been hit by a car. I pulled over, grabbed a towel and ran out into the street and scooped her up.

She was broken.

She lay in my arm, not moving, but I could feel her heart. I walked to the closest house to find the front door open and plenty of cars in the driveway, but no one answered my call. Then walked to the little baptist church next door to ask if they had seen the cat before and knew who it belonged to.

The sweet little girl tightened up in my arms for a second or two and then was gone.The pastor didn’t know who she belonged to, so I tried one more house across the street. No one home. As I was looking for an owner, Jesse was receiving a phone call from a friend of ours whose father is dying, she needed to get out of the house for a while, so we told her we would pick her up on the way to the humane society.

We dropped Anna Bella, who was very interested in the smell coming from under the towel in my arms,  off at home, picked up Sarah and with windows down, son drove us nervously to the shelter. I couldn’t look at her after she had passed. She was so sweet and tiny [only 2 years old] and very clean, couldn’t have been a stray.

We arrived at the shelter and took her in, the counter guy saw us wearing our volunteer badges and asked us where we found her. Then he proceeded to open the towel and look her over. He then told us how old she was, by looking at her teeth.

He then took her to the room in the back.

The room.

Volunteers aren’t allowed in the room in the back. Fine by me. A young uniformed guy was dropping off his two pitbull/rottweiler mixes behind us. Probably deploying and can’t find a home for them. Sweet dogs. So sad.

We gave Sarah a tour for the shelter and came home. My shirt  smelled of cat, blood and death.

Feeling a bit melancoly and sad. Life really is precious and fleeting. All life is precious. God created all life. We should respect all life.

I wonder if she had a home, a family, kids who loved her.  Kids who played with her, people who miss her right now.

I wonder what my death will be like.

 Sarahs dad is dying like my dad did. At home, in a hospital bed, with hospice.


Labored breathing, no food or water intake for days, not opening eyes. I know how hard it was for me at 20. How hard it must be for Sarah, who is 16, and who is the apple of her daddy’s eye.

If your heart so desires, pray for Sarah and her mother and half-sister. They all are Christians but are all struggling in different, difficult ways.

Love, The Home Engineer

Ps 23:4 – [In Context|Read Chapter|Original Hebrew]
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
Ps 48:14 – [In Context|Read Chapter|Original Hebrew]
For such is God, Our God forever and ever; He will guide us until death.
Ro 6:23 – [In Context|Read Chapter|Original Greek]
For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Re 21:4 – [In Context|Read Chapter|Original Greek]
and He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there will no longer be {any} death; there will no longer be {any} mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away.”

The Honor System


 What causes fights and quarrels among you?
You want something, but don’t get it. 
James 4:1-2

Few things cause as much conflict as trying to control other people. Some attempts to control others are blatantly self-serving, such as maximizing our own profit or influence at another person’s expense (Gen. 29:15-30).                     But the more common type of control involves trying to persuade, manipulate, or force people to do things that simply make our lives more comfortable and convenient.  

Taken from  The Peacemaker: A Biblical Guide to Resolving Personal Conflict
by Ken Sande, Updated Edition (Grand Rapids, Baker Books, 2003) p. 122.

Food for Thought

Our attempts at controlling others are totally dishonorable.

There are a few people who are blatantly self-serving; the rest of us are skilled at subtly trying to get our way and make life easier for ourselves. It may very well be one of the hardest things in the world to do–let people be. If we let others be, then that leaves us with only one option of somebody to work on–ourselves.

This is not some ego-heavy, self-focus. No, this is continually searching our own hearts, minds, souls, and strength to see where elements of selfish persuasion, me-centered manipulation, and it’s-all-about-me attitudes are being used in our relationships with other people. It’s actually a very honoring way to live.  

 We honor God by admitting that He is in control, not us. We honor other people and the way God is working in their lives. And we honor ourselves, realizing what an honor it is to daily walk with a Savior who loves us and is conforming us into His image. 


~~This is so true, so hard and so convicting. I’m in the midst of struggling to not be controlling over the boy I gave birth to. To let him have control/responsibility over himself and his actions. Sit back and think on this one a minute, is this something you should be working on?

~Blessings, Home Engineer

Musings on ….. Beautiful Boy


From Amazon

A few days ago while waiting for my son to finishing Drivers class, I hopped over to Barnes and Noble to check out the high-priced shiny new books.

I never buy books there, too many good deals online, but was in a weird mood and picked up 2 books.

One was Francine Rivers Leota’s Garden  and the other. Beautiful Boy.

It’s a wonderful story, well, not such a wonderful subject, but I really liked it. To me the best part was reading how a father, a male, deals with his sons addiction.

As we women know not many men are handy at using words to form sentences regarding their thoughts 😉

With stuff going on in my life I can relate to this book, I also can see how my addictions affected others.

He loves to learn and from his desire to learn about his sons enemy he wrote a lot of facts/statistics. Which I love.

2 excerpts:

 “so much of this disease is grieving. Grief is interrupted by hope, hope by grief. Then our grieving is interrupted by a new crisis.”

Dave, the father, was talking to a counselor and he asked the father if he believed in God. Father told him no, the family didn’t. The counselor told him “You will by the time this is all over”

Short and simple: good book, get it, read it, if you want to borrow it, you can.

His son also wrote a book called Tweak: its on my wish list.