Monthly Archives: September 2008

In My Dreams……..


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In a dream I had the other night we were on a boat, a fast big boat cruising along close to the shore.

My friend told me to come out on the back deck of the boat to look at a window he had fixed.

There was no railing on the boat, I told him to hold Anna Bella because I didn’t want her to fall off.

On the shore there was a polar bear pacing, seeing the boat, hoping for some scraps, I guess.

The shore was like the forest, green and tree laden. Odd place for a polar bear.

My friend was holding Anna but she slipped away.

She slid off the back of the boat into the deep water.

It took me but a second to gather my thoughts and jump in behind her.

In only those few seconds I was so far from her.

The polar bear saw her land in the water and gleefully jumped in and started swimming toward her.

I had a leash in my hand as I swam as fast as I could to my puppy.

The bear and I reached Anna at the same time……..


Anna paddled as fast as she could to the shore, the only place she could see to go.

The shore was land, safe.

The boat, she saw, had left her behind without a glance.

She did not see the big shadow of the polar bear, her focus was on the land, she did not know she was heading into danger.


Dogs can drown if they have to swim too far, they get tired, but are compelled to get to safety.


Sometimes I feel like my Anna Bella.

I’m treading water, getting tired, looking for a safe place to swim to, but never finding it.

The boat has left me far behind.

And the shore, is either so far away or danger is lurking within the trees that line the sandy beach.

I feel like I’m paddling but getting nowhere, and crying, well, that takes too much energy.

I feel like just quitting. Stopping the arm movements, straightening my aching legs.

Relaxing my body.

Giving up, sinking, drowning.

Where would I end up?

What choice do I have?

What does it all mean?


the end of my dream…

As the polar bear reaches my dog, opening its mouth for a tasty treat I feel myself rear up out of the water and start to slap the polar bears nose with the leash that was held tightly in my hand.

I wake up to the sound of music blaring from the radio.


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Acts 2:17
” ‘In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams.


the posts since Iowa trip are about 2 weeks behind real time, and i have posts scheduled up until oct.

All is well here, school is good (so far). we made a couple videos, took a couple tests and our first major field trip is to see Phantom of the Opera Thursday night. Keep checking back for couple more Iowa posts, some videos and a couple D.o I.t Y.ourself posts.

Ciao, Kristina  

I’m Letting Go of the Life Planned for Me…..


We were listening to this song on the way to church.

Son says “This is my new favorite song”

I said “I just thinking how I’m not letting go of the life planned for as much as God is ripping my plan away to reveal His plan”

Now those of you who are worried sick about maybe one of us dying. Forget it. None of us are dying or have life-threatening illnesses.

None of us have breast cancer or MS or broken bones.

All of us are blessed WAY BEYOND what we deserve and we are just going thru a bumpy road in life.

Circumstances way beyond our control and because of circumstances and sin we suffer consequences from it.

Will we make it?

Of Course we will. Those of you who have read this blog for any amount of time know how I (our family) feel about our God and we know He is in control.

Of all our lives. All the time. I find that this ‘problem’ of ours will be a long-standing one and if when I rest in God the road becomes much less bumpy. (Much like the rolling hills of Iowa 🙂 )


So just pray for us to make right decisions, get along in our home-schooling adventure and keep our focus on The Maker of Heaven and Earth.

Focus…….is the key. The prize our eyes are to focus on. Life with God.


It Only Takes a Spark



“Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts.
Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. 
The tongue also is a fire…” James 3:5-6

Scripture warns us that the tongue is often a chief cause of conflict…Reckless words, spoken hastily and without thinking, inflame many conflicts.  “Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing” (Prov. 12:18; cf. Prov 13:3; 17:28; 21:23; 29:20).  Although we may seldom set out deliberately to hurt others with our words, sometimes we do not make much of an effort not to hurt others.  We simply say whatever comes to mind without thinking about the consequences.  In the process, we may hurt and offend others, which only aggravates conflict.

Taken from  The Peacemaker: A Biblical Guide to Resolving Personal Conflict
by Ken Sande, Updated Edition (Grand Rapids, Baker Books, 2003) p. 121

Food for Thought

Do your words heal or pierce?  Not sure?  Look at the people around you.   

But first, let’s take a little stroll down memory lane for a moment.  In the 70’s, many Christians were singing, “It only takes a spark, to get a fire going.”  Remember that?  And while that song was referring to the fire of God’s love, that phrase always brought to mind James’ warnings concerning the tongue.  How about this one?  “Only you can prevent forest fires.”  Smokey the Bear’s deep-throated plea emphasized the incendiary potential of our personal irresponsibility.

Now, how about looking back at last month or last week?  Was there any time when just one of your words could have been described as reckless?  Or was there even one moment when you just said what you felt with an attitude of “I’m not responsible for how she interprets this, I’m just going to say it.”  Does anything like that feel familiar?  If so, if you look beyond the “memory lane” you’re strolling down, you may see a scorched landscape.

The culture in which we live seems to worship the reckless word; the popular people just call it being “snarky.” For some reason, we’ve equated reckless with being wide-eyed and grown-up.  The reality is that reckless should be equated with near-sighted and immature.  Our marriages, families, schools, churches and country are ablaze. Oh, of course, we really didn’t mean to set them on fire, but we really didn’t make the effort to not set them on fire, either.  Memory without responsibility leaves us nostalgic and blind, with smoke in our eyes because our hearts are on fire.  Remember, through the power of the Holy Spirit, only you can prevent those fires set by reckless words.


I’m reminded of older folks who just say whatever because they are old and have a ‘right’ to.

Anyone have any experience with this one?

Please share. Kristina

God’s ‘Won’t’


“You turn things upside down, as if the potter were thought
to be like the clay!”  Isaiah 29:16

God’s sovereignty is so complete that he exercises ultimate control even over painful and unjust events (Exod. 4:10-12; Job 1:6-12; 42:11; Ps. 71:20-22; Isa. 45:5-7; Lam. 3:37-38; Amos 3:6; I Peter 3:17).  This is difficult for us to understand and accept, because we tend to judge God’s actions according to our notions of what is right.  Whether consciously or subconsciously, we say to ourselves, “If I were God and could control everything in the world, I wouldn’t allow someone to suffer this way.”  Such thoughts show how little we understand and respect God.

Taken from  The Peacemaker: A Biblical Guide to Resolving Personal Conflict
by Ken Sande, Updated Edition (Grand Rapids, Baker Books, 2003) p. 61

Food for Thought

In seeking to follow God’s will, are you open to His won’t?

There have been countless sermons preached and numerous books written concerning God’s will.  But have you ever heard someone talk about God’s won’t?  How many times have you asked, sought and knocked, only to hear God say, “No.”?  We often find ourselves in painful and unjust events; we discover thorns in our flesh or hear peace proclaimed where there is no peace.  And we cry out, “Save us!  Take it away!  Roll down your justice, O Lord!”  We might ask three times or maybe even keep at it for three years.  But the answer from heaven appears to be, “I won’t.”       

As Ken points out, this is difficult for us to understand and accept.  We’re convinced that God should do this or should intervene there.  And when it appears that he won’t, we question his control. Or his love.  Or both.  And it’s not that the questioning is wrong, per se, but that the questioning frequently gets “ment-ed” — filled with judgment or resentment toward God.  However, “such thoughts show how little we understand and respect God.” We turn things upside down and seek to understand them based on what little we really know or see.  We have to remember that we are the clay, not the potter. There is a God and we’re not him.  The life of faith is allowing our lives to be lived God-side-up, obediently trusting his infinitely, tender hand to mold and shape us according to his good will.  And that includes his good won’t.


Wow, how many times have we gone there, beloved?

I know I have. Going thru some tough times now, I think I need a miracle. But the only miracle  I can honestly ask for is Come, Lord Jesus. (rev 22:20)

For all other miracles, as in, take this away from me, just don’t jive with His sovereignty.

Something terrible has happened and the consequences are saturating my life, making me anxious, weak, disheartened and discontent. But I know even as I go thru this time, its all working for His good, for His name to be proclaimed thru my life. To ask Him to take this from me would be cheating me of the sanctification I really truly desire.



I’m Going to Home-School!?!?!?


Hello All;

Due to personal reasons and Gods great sovereignty over everything in our lives;

We are homeschooling the boy this year.

So what I would like to ask you is…… HELP ME!!!!!

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I have no idea what I am doing, i know there is 800 different home-school methods and ideas and factions and co-ops and and and …..

Here is a little synopsis of our situation, then please, please, please comment!

Boy: 10th grade

his scheduled classes from TBS:

Rosetta Stone (latin)

Strength and Development

English II

Bible II



Leadership (he was elected to be class secretary)

So we would like to stay with these classes in case He goes back to his private baptist school next year.

My ideas:

get him a computer, do a program that includes both computer and paper work.

someone else grading his papers and keeping his grades.

We can do a strength training program here, i have great program for him (but don’t know how to make it a credited class)

We can get him a Rosetta Stone program.

Do I need to be accredited somewhere? Who needs to be contacted that he is homeschooled?

Will these credits be transferrable to either his old school or a running start program next year?

How do co-ops work?

Yeah, basically I know nothing, so use baby words when leaving a comment.

🙂 my head right now is whirling.

thanks for the help in advance.

God’s Peace, Kristina

1 A good name is to be more desired than great wealth,

Favor is better than silver and gold.

2 The rich and the poor have a common bond,

The LORD is the maker of them all.

3 The prudent sees the evil and hides himself,

But the naive go on, and are punished for it.

4 The reward of humility and the fear of the LORD

Are riches, honor and life.

5 Thorns  and snares are in the way of the perverse;

He who guards himself will be far from them.

6 Train up a child in he way he should go,

Even when he is old he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22