Daily Archives: April 7, 2008

Lately ~ Conviction, Depression and Realization


Lately I have been convinced of many things,  some of them are:

1. Not keeping my mouth shut, not biting my tongue, the proverbial foot in mouth syndrome

       and riding on that…

2. Not letting my husband be a leader

3. Not wanting the boy to grow up, not trusting in his judgment or Gods for his life

4. Not being content with where I am in life

      and with that….

3. Not letting God be my comfort, my joy, my “air traffic controller”

It’s all about CONTROL

I got serious control issues, I want to be in control, I think I’m in control. I think I’m better at being in control than my hubby and my God.

As you read this, you are probably thinking, “Duh? Who is better in being in control than God, why would she be so stupid as to think she controls everything?”

Other things I’m realizing:

Sins effects are more wide spreading than we (I) care to even acknowledge….

          …But I have to acknowledge

Relations between christians and non-christians are an ever-widening gulf

People always disappoint me…

        …But that is my fault

I disappoint many more people than I care to think about….

        …I’m sorry


 Dear Father, head of our one enduring spiritual family,

Thank you that you have not left us uninformed in matters of
family relations. Thank you for the apostle Paul’s instructions,
which tell us to be holy in body and spirit and to give ourselves
up to please you. Help me, Father, to do that.

May we be content in the situations in which you have placed us.
May those of us with spouses live, in a sense, as if we had none.
May those of us who mourn over lost loved ones, in a sense, not
mourn at all. May those of us who rejoice, in a sense, not be so
joyful. May those of us who buy and sell, in a sense, act as if we
have no goods. May those of us who deal with the world, in a sense,
act as if we have no dealings with the world at all.

What does it all mean? This world and the form of it are passing
away, so free me from all anxiety! There is no answer apart from
knowing that you are in control and will bring to pass your good

Grant us rest in you! In the name of Jesus I lift up this prayer
to you. Amen.

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