Daily Archives: October 15, 2007

My 17 Year *Snort* Addiction

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Yep, believe it or not, I was addicted to nose spray for 17 years, probably more.

It started when I come home from Alaska in 1987.

I had assumed I had contracted an allergy to cats, since I had been living with cats in AK but not before.

 

I had bottles of nose spray everywhere, in my purse, bedside table, kitchen, bathroom, car. I could not go 4-5 hours without it. If I had forgot it, then I had to get to a store to get some.

If I did not have it and could not get access to some, I would have a mini-panic attack. My nose would completely clog up and I felt like I couldn’t breathe. And in fact, I couldn’t.

I met my hubby when we were at a mutual friends b-day party [at a bar] and I needed some nose spray, so we walked across the street together to the drugstore for some. {ahh, how sweet}

 

He should have suspected something then, but no!

My nose would swell up at everything; alcohol, outside grasses, inside smoke, cats, which I owned.

Of course that was the rebound effect causing the stuffiness, not the actual allergen.

I was in the hospital getting my uterus ripped out about 3 years ago, and woke up in the middle of the night, not being able to breathe. The hospital or hubby would not let me have the nose spray while I was in the hospital. So anyway, I called him at 2 am, telling him I couldn’t breathe, I was gonna scream and he needed to bring me some nose spray. He suggested I tell the nurse. I did. She gave me some decongestant and some saline spray.

Hubby did bring me some later on that day, but I was exhausted from not sleeping. As soon as I got home, sniff*snort* awwww~relief.

It really was as bad as alcohol for me. My mind was so focused on having it and freaking out if I didn’t have it, just like the booze.

I had gone to an allergist about 6 years into it. The guy, who shall remain nameless, gave me some steroid nose spray told me to use it and stop the other stuff.

He also gave me a breast exam. more on that later.

Well, I went back to the hard core stuff and was mainlining it wherever the need arose.

I wonder how much I spend on that stuff in 17 years. Probably not as much as the vodka. *sigh*

Oh yeah, and I would get tons of sinus infections during this time.

A few years ago, I was going thru my mental list of what I needed to conquer, I had already banished the alcohol addiction and pretty much knocked the depression down a few notches, so I decided it was time for the nose spray, I didn’t want that stupid little bottle to control me anymore.

I went to a different doctor this time, a female doc in the same bldg as the boob fondler.  She did not give me a breast exam and when I told her of the situation with the guy doc. she got this weird look. I don’t know maybe she thought I was crazy. But I have heard from other people that the fondler has a really bad bedside manner.

She got me some prescription steroid nose spray, saline spray, Astelin and Nasonex, told me to get a air purifier {cleaner}, a pillow wedge and started me up on Allegra. I got the allergy tests, up and down my arms and found out I’m only allergic to dust mites, mold and a bit of grasses.

Nothing like what I thought. But, again, it was the rebound action that was stuffing me up so bad. I also have a deviated septum. Which causes me to only be able to sleep on one side at night.

 

Surgery on the septum scares the carp out of me, because after I wouldn’t be able to breathe having all that packing shoved up my nose.

Armed with all my new drugs and stuff off I go to sleep. Yeah, right. It was the worst 2 months of my life {besides the broken foot 2 months  😉 }

Being stuffed up is miserable. Miserable! I begged my hubby to get me some nose spray. Begged, bribed, pleaded. But he wouldn’t. He was/is a brave soul to put up with me.

Now I breathe fairly well, can not sleep on my left side very well, still take Allegra for my outside allergies. The panicky feeling of not being able to breathe is gone.

To make a long story short, if I can lose the addiction, you can too!

There is great info. out in the web world and an allergist can help tremendously.

 

This guy claims its not a true addiction. What does he know, its not like he is an allergist or sumthing 😉

Article from NYTimes here

Another interesting article here  and  this blog post and here at Recoveries Anonymous, and this forum

Hope you enjoyed my little history lesson of my life.

Blessings, Kristina

15Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. 17And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.