Monthly Archives: August 2007

What the Heck Is Going On with Me?



I’m having panic attacks, people!

For a freaking cast on my leg!

What is wrong with me?!?!?!

and reading about is no better….

Panic Attacks Symptoms

  • The American Psychiatric Association’s official Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders IV (DSM-IV) defines a panic attack as a discrete period of intense fear or discomfort, in which 4 (or more) of the following symptoms develop abruptly and reach a peak within 10 minutes:
    • Palpitations, pounding heart, or fast heart rate {I Got this}
    • Sweating
    • Trembling and shaking {got this, last night especially}
    • Sensations of shortness of breath or smothering [ a little bit of this]
    • Feelings of choking
    • Chest pain or discomfort
    • Nausea or abdominal distress [got this]
    • Feeling dizzy, unsteady, lightheaded, or faint
    • Derealization (feelings of unreality) or depersonalization (being detached from oneself)
    • Fear of losing control or going crazy [I got the fear of having lost control]
    • Fear of dying
    • Paresthesias (numbness or tingling sensations)
    • Chills or hot flashes
  • Some of these symptoms will most likely be present in a panic attack. The attacks can be so disabling that the person is unable to express to others what is happening to them. A doctor might also note various signs of panic: The person may appear terrified or shaky or be hyperventilating (deep, rapid breathing causing dizziness).
  • Recent literature suggests that men and women may experience different symptoms during an attack. Women tend to experience a predominance of respiratory symptoms compared to men.

*Limited Symptom Attack

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Wheelchairs and Penguins


Saturday we went to Costco (warehouse grocery store) to pick up lunch supplies for the boy and the guys carted me around in the wheelchair.

It is an understatement to say it was an experience.

First, what were we thinking going on a busy saturday?

Second, God is teaching me things, things about control.

Like, I don’t have ANY control in a wheelchair.

Like, I DON’T like not being in control.

Like, the guys have very different ideas of how things should be done and in what order. 🙂

I told son this morning what I thought God was trying (and I say trying because I’m fighting to learn/accept it) to doing in my life with this whole foot thing

{which would be working on my control and patience issues} and asked him what he thought God was trying to teach him.

He says, and I quote “Everything. laundry”

[That boy will make a fine husband someday]

So the wheelchair doesn’t have the big wheels to hand push yourself around in.

My son was whizzing me around so fast that I was getting motion sick. And we went from the blankets to the game systems games about 12 times in about 12 seconds. Because that is what he wanted to look at.

Then when I said, enough, let hubby have a ‘chance’ to push me, hubby would then meander along, slow and steady, staring at everything with that ‘man face at Home Depot’ look.

you know the one, glassy eyes, mouth open, neck cocked upward

You guys know the face when you hit Home Depot/car store/book store/hooters [whatever your fancy is] and are in awe of all the ‘stuff’ ! 😉

*Jim, don’t be mad, I love you and thank you for taking care of cranky ole me when I’m down!


If you ever want to learn compassion for someone different than you, walk a day in their shoes…


Riding in a wheelchair is crazy. People don’t see you.

If you are not eye level to someone they look right over you.

And then are miffed when they almost run over you, like you are in their way.

Side Track:

Ya know how when bikers ride by another biker they give them the head nod or cool side wave or whatever bikers do.

Well, disabled people DON’T DO that.

I think I saw 3 people in various forms of being disabled, in wheelchairs and tried to give them a smile, sympathetic nod and such.

nothing. nada.


{Edit: I’m sorry if disabled is not the correct word!}

I have a lot more empathy

2 : the action of understanding, being aware of, being sensitive to, and vicariously experiencing the feelings, thoughts, and experience of another of either the past or present without having the feelings, thoughts, and experience fully communicated in an objectively explicit manner; also : the capacity for empathy

and compassion for those less mobile

1. a feeling of deep sympathy and sorrow for another who is stricken by misfortune, accompanied by a strong desire to alleviate the suffering.

  1 corin 12:12The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. 13For we were all baptized by one Spirit into one body—whether Jews or Greeks, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink.

A Bunch of HullaBalloo



How do you like the new theme? (i changed it back)

Free Grace Broadcaters is a publication of puritan guys on various subjects, I received the marriage one and it is awesome, ranks up there with TableTalk. {Ashley, I will let you borrow it, Jason & Tim; heard of these guys?}

E-mail them, and get free publications, catalogs, tapes and prison minstry info. Great stuff.

Some Baptist seminary is offering homemaking classes, check out this post to investigate more….

While I was working out this morning, I was serenaded by my son playing ‘A Mighy Fortress is our God’ on the piano. What a sweet song! Listen to it here

Interesting post on Sin against the Holy Spirit here

I read ‘me’ in this post, I might be brave enough to try it – someday, but it should be now not later, there isn’t much time left….

‘Preacher’ Paula White and hubby calling their marraige quits Here

But Wait, there is more, click here




A Follow-up to Mondays post:


 He who answers before listening – that is his folly and his shame.Proverbs 18:13 

Waiting patiently while others talk is a key listening skill. 

 Without this skill, you will often fail to understand the root cause of a conflict, and you may complicate matters with inappropriate reactions.

Taken from  The Peacemaker: A Biblical Guide to Resolving Personal Conflict
by Ken Sande, Updated Edition (Grand Rapids, Baker Books, 2003) p. 166

Food for Thought

How often are you thinking about what you’re going to say while the other person is finishing what they’re saying?

This is a hard one, right?  But a little bit of discipline can go a long way in the listening department. 

 One suggestion is learning to be comfortable with silence. 

 For example, the next time you jump in your car to go somewhere, resist the urge to turn on the radio. 

 Roll down the window and drive in silence.  Whether it’s two blocks or twenty-seven miles, drive in silence. 

Silence… it’s not the absence of sound, but the absence of noise. 

Take the noise away and you’ll be amazed at what you can hear.  It might be the song of mockingbirds. 

Or maybe the heart of a significant matter.

My hubby is this way {I am too} But you can literallly see the wheels turning on the side of his head while I’m talking to him.

He is a problem solver, a do-er, a fixer, its a man thing. But he doesn’t let a person finish their sentence. And he just doesn’t see it,  and as good proverbs 31 wife [*cough*cough*] I shouldn’t bring it up to him. But, alas, I do sometimes, ya know how you see something about a person, and can not even believe they can’t see it in themselves?

~And as a wise person once said, the sins we see in others are the ones we have ourselves~

I Absolutely love the silence, too much noise stresses me out.

 Sometimes after being at home all day in silence, when the guys come home, I can hardly tolerate all the noise, the hubby wants the TV on, son talking 90 miles per hour, hubby asking every 5 minutes when is dinner, you know the drill.

My mom has to have the TV or radio on all the time, shes says she can not stand the silence, it makes her think. A shame really, She knows no peace.

Whatever your noise level is, turn it down, learn to enjoy silence, use the time to pray, talk to God.

Anyone else have this problem? Comments?

Blessings, Kristina

Proverbs 18

      2 A fool finds no pleasure in understanding
but delights in airing his own opinions.

       4 The words of a man’s mouth are deep waters,
but the fountain of wisdom is a bubbling brook.

    6 A fool’s lips bring him strife,
and his mouth invites a beating.

    7 A fool’s mouth is his undoing,
and his lips are a snare to his soul.

    8 The words of a gossip are like choice morsels;
they go down to a man’s inmost parts.

    10 The name of the LORD is a strong tower;
the righteous run to it and are safe.

       13 He who answers before listening—
that is his folly and his shame.

    17 The first to present his case seems right,
till another comes forward and questions him.

      20 From the fruit of his mouth a man’s stomach is filled;
with the harvest from his lips he is satisfied.

    21 The tongue has the power of life and death,
and those who love it will eat its fruit.

    23 A poor man pleads for mercy,
but a rich man answers harshly.

Oh, Be Careful Little Mouth


“Even a fool is thought wise…and discerning if he holds his tongue.”
Proverbs 17:28

Reckless words, spoken hastily and without thinking, inflame many conflicts.  “Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing” (Prov. 12:18; cf. Prov. 13:3; 17:28; 21:23; 29:20).  Although we may seldom set out deliberately to hurt others with our words, sometimes we do not make much of an effort not to hurt others.  We simply say what comes to mind without thinking about the consequences.  In the process, we may hurt and offend others, which only aggravates conflict.

Taken from  The Peacemaker: A Biblical Guide to Resolving Personal Conflict
by Ken Sande, Updated Edition (Grand Rapids, Baker Books, 2003) p. 121

Food for Thought

What have you said recently without thinking?

The word “reckless” usually conjures up images of someone driving a car with no concern for the people around them.  A reckless driver can cause havoc on the highway, putting his or her life, as well as the lives of others, in harm’s way.  If we spot someone driving recklessly, we usually find a cell phone and alert the police.  But what about someone speaking recklessly?

Simply saying what comes to mind can be looked upon as being authentic and honest.  People admire the plain-speak quality and often promote folks who can do it.  But it can also be looked upon as not thinking, or reckless.  The lives of the one speaking and those hearing then are caught in harm’s way.  And if you’re caught in harm’s way, the result is usually some kind of harm.  Oh, be careful little mouth what you say.

I, personally have a problem with this, I’m getting better, I’m able to hold my tongue longer and am learning to say things in a more sensitive or correct way. But it is hard. If Im a bit tired or distracted or… then I slip up, and hopefully I catch it. And apologize.

What’s worse for me, is swearing. Im horrible. Really horrible. Like a freaking trucker. Bad. And the same deal here, a slight bit tired, frustrated, mad, distracted…then out the profanities come.

it’s awful, because if I hear it from another person, I just look at them and think ‘whoa, that was fowl’

I’m at my worst in my house with my boys and with the non-christians in my family I easily slip back into that mode of talking trash.

And I can’t blame satan for this one…

The tongue is a mighty weapon.

Pray for me and for anyone you know who has a problem with the smallest of evils. The mouth.

Blessings, Kristina

Ps 39:1 -I said, “I will guard my ways That I may not sin with my tongue; I will guard my mouth as with a muzzle While the wicked are in my presence.”


Ps 50:19 – “You let your mouth loose in evil And your tongue frames deceit. Ps 52:2 -Your tongue devises destruction, Like a sharp razor, O worker of deceit. Ps 52:4 – You love all words that devour, O deceitful tongue. Ps 57:4 – My soul is among lions; I must lie among those who breathe forth fire, {Even} the sons of men, whose teeth are spears and arrows And their tongue a sharp sword.

Ps 64:3 -Who have sharpened their tongue like a sword. They aimed bitter speech {as} their arrow, Ps 64:8 – So they will make him stumble; Their own tongue is against them; All who see them will shake the head. Pr 18:21 -Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit. Isa 59:3 – For your hands are defiled with blood And your fingers with iniquity; Your lips have spoken falsehood, Your tongue mutters wickedness. Jer 9:3 – “They bend their tongue {like} their bow; Lies and not truth prevail in the land; For they proceed from evil to evil, And they do not know Me,” declares the LORD.

Jer 9:5 – “Everyone deceives his neighbor And does not speak the truth, They have taught their tongue to speak lies; They weary themselves committing iniquity. Jer 9:8 – “Their tongue is a deadly arrow; It speaks deceit; With his mouth one speaks peace to his neighbor, But inwardly he sets an ambush for him.

Jas 1:26 -If anyone thinks himself to be religious, and yet does not bridle his tongue but deceives his {own} heart, this man’s religion is worthless. Jas 3:5 -So also the tongue is a small part of the body, and {yet} it boasts of great things. See how great a forest is set aflame by such a small fire! Jas 3:6 – And the tongue is a fire, the {very} world of iniquity; the tongue is set among our members as that which defiles the entire body, and sets on fire the course of {our} life, and is set on fire by hell. Jas 3:8 – But no one can tame the tongue; {it is} a restless evil {and} full of deadly poison.


Health Assessment, Foot update, Other Stuff


I have a sports medicine ortho doctor appt. on Friday, Chirocracker appt. today and we are heading to the ocean {Ocean Shores} for 2 nights with the dog.

While it won’t be very fun for moi, the boys will have a blast and I can sit and knit, maybe they can rent a carriage bicycle thing and ride me and the puppy around the town.

We are deciding if we should take my gramma’s wheelchair…..

The Ongoing Adventures of ASBO Jesus HERE

This is an awesome blog, please check it out


Please forgive if there is a copyright thing, I didn’t see one on his site. He is very good!

My son got his penguin collection accepted in the puyallup fair, how very exciting!

When I was his age, I had an Oscar the Grouch collection and had it entered in the fair.

Those who know me, know that Oscar suits me well…….  🙂

And this is the way I have been feeling lately……

Go here if you would like a general health assessment, its easy and accurate…..

Here is mine, all but the, Your HDL cholesterol level is in the higher-risk range,  is good, I put the wrong numbers in for that…. Read the rest of this entry