Daily Archives: February 28, 2007

I’m Depressed


Life comes in spurts (that sounds bad, but true)
Yesterday, Blazer stalls at son’s school, we are late for dentist appt.
I found out I have a cracked tooth that needs to be fixed, and we all know how fun that can be.
Son gets an F on his bible test and doesn’t tell me until this morning when his father is gone.
Son tells dentist I think he is cute. [which he is, but damn!]
Spoke with vet, the puker is ‘probably’ riddled with cancer and will need to be ‘put down’.
We were looking thru old photos last night.


Now all those things aren’t what is making me depressed.
I already am depressed, been feeling it creeping up for about a week.
My cyclic depression goes in 3 month increments. -novdec/march/june/sept/
I am tons better than I used to be.

What with fueling the depression with alcohol.
My episodes were crazy.
Now I pray, think about what’s setting them off, or making them worse.

Focus on that and ‘fixing’ whatever it is.

Like at Christmas time, I HATE the holiday season.
This past Christmas/thanksgiving I was determined to be better, I prayed and prayed and decided I always put so much pressure on myself to ‘do’ everything. I cut my ‘doing’ by over half and lo and behold, I made it thru and even felt joy during the  holiday visits.

And amazingly enough, no one’s holiday was ruined by my not going the extra mile.
June and Sept are trying times because of the school schedule.

I can’t convince my son he needs to go to summer camp, he loves to stay home and play in our pool.
{As i sit here, i just realized that its my selfishness that gets to me in June} all school year I’m doing my own thing and in the summer, my schedule gets all discombobulated by the boy being home.
Sept. is usually the time I start feeling like I need to do something, volunteer or get a job.
From sept. to dec. it gets busy.
But March is a weird one, its my birthday and my sons birthday, but nothing really stands out  to be a factor in the cycle. Maybe just because it is a cycle.

Ok, Im done venting, Im happy because Im seeing Amazing Grace today.

I have salvation, rest, peace and joy from the Lord. My family, my health.

Please see this page for history of me and depression

Blessings on your day!

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1 Timothy 6:6-12 –
6 But godliness {actually} is a means of great gain when accompanied by contentment.  7 For we have brought nothing into the world, so we cannot take anything out of it either. 8 If we have food and covering, with these we shall be content. 9 But  those who want to get rich fall into temptation and a snare and many foolish and harmful desires which plunge men into ruin and destruction. 10 For the  love of money is a root of all sorts of evil, and some by longing for it have wandered  away from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. 11 But flee  from these things, you man  of God, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love,  perseverance  {and} gentleness. 12 Fight the good fight of faith;  take  hold of the eternal life to which you were called, and you made the good confession  in the presence of many witnesses.