Why Am I So Angry? Because of Sin

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 I was doing this huge word study and scripture study of anger, but I just ran out of steam.
RC Sproul states when we are angry its because of these 3 things
1. We are frustrated
2. We are hurt
3. We are disappointed
and everyone and everywhere  states anger comes from selfishness.
There is a difference between righteous anger and unrighteous anger.
 But when is the last time you really had a pure righteous anger about something?
I dont think anyone has truly righteous anger, but we are not righteous, our anger is always tinged with sin.
RC Sproul has a tape series on anger I’m going to re-listen to because I’m dealing with a lot of anger.
un-resolved anger, with my hubby, my family, the church split, etc.
I am frustrated when things don’t go my way or people don’t do what I would do or in the same way.
I am hurt when people don’t take my advice. on anything. especially ‘scriptural’ advice.
I am disappointed when my hubby doesn’t do or say the think the right things.
Anger is so self motivated.
I am an angry person.
I am so selfish.
I am scared it will grow roots, roots of bitterness that weave their way underground, spreading,
seeking water for its nourishment, sprouting up in the unlikely-est of places.
My anger is so bad at times I can’t even be nice.
My anger leads me to depression. To stay in the house so I don’t offend anyone.
My anger makes me physically ill. It ruins my marriage. It keeps me from friendships.
Before  I ‘became’ a Christian, my life was full of anger over things I had no control over, big things, my dad, my father, my past relationships, my self.
Alcohol became the water I drank to nourish the rage.
Depression became part of the vicious cycle I led myself into.
Now, the ‘big’ issues in my life are dealt with, the Holy Spirit, I know, He has claimed my heart,
I can change and have changed.
BUT. I have these unforgettable injustices I feel have been done to me and I
can’t get over them, yes, I’ve prayed. Maybe they are slowly dying, I just can’t see the
effects yet. But will my relationships make thru my ‘sanctification’?
I know God doesnt want me like this, I dont want me like this, my family and friends don’t want me like this.
Here are the words of God for me, the ones that are familiar:
Eph 4:26BE ANGRY, AND {yet} DO NOT SIN; do not let the sun go down on your anger,
Eph 4:31Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice.
Col 3:8But now you also, put them all aside: anger, wrath, malice, slander, {and} abusive speech from your mouth.
Jas 1:19{This} you know, my beloved brethren. But everyone must be quick to hear, slow to speak {and} slow to anger;
Jas 1:20
for the anger of man does not achieve the righteousness of God.

Also, a good article on anger here

Resentment is a good word for me.  

Now I don’t walk around a raging lion screaming and yelling and carrying on. But it seeps out, more than I would like it to. I need the help of God to overcome this one, My self control aint gonna cut it for this one.

I know I can’t be the only one who feels this way. Am I?

Pray for me…. 🙂

Blessings, Kristina

“For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness”

Ralph Waldo Emerson

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About Kristina

51 year old Christian lady, knitter, pet sitter/walker, bible collector, crafter, little business owner, thrill seeker (only when shopping at thrift stores for tremendous bargains) my animals servant, a child of God, saved, redeemed and trying to be joyful in a fallen world.

4 responses »

  1. Good church sign. So when you stub your toe do you say “Beaver Dammit”?

    I heard that “great theologian” Robert Schuler say one time “you can’t bury a worm.” That always stuck with me. I’ve got to deal with my crap, own my crap, admit I have my crap, and deal with my crap.

    So pretty much every day I get out my shovel and start shovelin’

  2. Angry, frustrated, hurt, disappointed, selfish, prideful, scared… yup. Me too. Yup, all pride. But the life we now life we live by the grace of the Son of God who loved us and gave Himself for us.

    Pride, pride, pride. I am so full of it. Often times, that’s what I’m angry, disappointed, and scared about, and it comes out frustrated, hurtful, and selfish–the opposite of what you’d think, if you’re trying to avoid something. But we try to do it without grace.

    You know that book my grandma gave me? I need to a) finish it and b) lend it to you. It’s pretty amazing how it talks about the sufferings of Christ. Maybe we all need to be a little *more* Catholic and remember what a Man of Sorrows He was. He knows. He was trapped in this body, too. Without sin, yes, but with the tortures of living in a world bound under it.

    Eh. Still crabby, and too long, but… love ya, and do pray for ya.

    Remember that Accusor? Just because he’s right doesn’t mean we have to listen to him. Your Maker is your judge, and He has died for you.

    But ugh… I know.

  3. Your post reminds me of Numbers 21: “And Jehovah sent fiery serpents among the people, and they bit the people; and many people of Israel died…And Jehovah spoke to Moses, Make yourself a fiery serpent, and set it upon a pole; and it shall be that when anyone that is bitten, when he sees it, he shall live.”

    When you wrote the post there were fiery serpents all about you and you tried to count them all. Many people in Israel died looking at the snakes biting them and their families. Those that remembered Gods promise and looked up at the snake on the pole, they lived. That is why you go to church on Sunday, to remind you to look up and live!

    Church splits happen because people look at the sin around them and not the savior on the cross. I see my spouses sin but not my own, and versa visa I might add.

    I have an all purpose pet fiery serpent that I keep with me for when I am not otherwise occupied. It is named after the kid who broke all the toys in “Toy Story.” Sin is fun until you look at the cross and see the pain and suffering and hurt. Looking to the cross is key.

    Jesus knows what I am like, and through St. Paul, He has told me he loves me anyway. St Paul said the same about you.

  4. Greetings. I don’t think that I’ve ever been here before, but the above comment by Mr Colson is right on target. We have to look to Christ continually. Otherwise the old devices will try to reassert themselves. Your post is a thought provoking one. Thanks.
    Have a blessed day.

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