Monthly Archives: February 2007

I’m Depressed


Life comes in spurts (that sounds bad, but true)
Yesterday, Blazer stalls at son’s school, we are late for dentist appt.
I found out I have a cracked tooth that needs to be fixed, and we all know how fun that can be.
Son gets an F on his bible test and doesn’t tell me until this morning when his father is gone.
Son tells dentist I think he is cute. [which he is, but damn!]
Spoke with vet, the puker is ‘probably’ riddled with cancer and will need to be ‘put down’.
We were looking thru old photos last night.


Now all those things aren’t what is making me depressed.
I already am depressed, been feeling it creeping up for about a week.
My cyclic depression goes in 3 month increments. -novdec/march/june/sept/
I am tons better than I used to be.

What with fueling the depression with alcohol.
My episodes were crazy.
Now I pray, think about what’s setting them off, or making them worse.

Focus on that and ‘fixing’ whatever it is.

Like at Christmas time, I HATE the holiday season.
This past Christmas/thanksgiving I was determined to be better, I prayed and prayed and decided I always put so much pressure on myself to ‘do’ everything. I cut my ‘doing’ by over half and lo and behold, I made it thru and even felt joy during the  holiday visits.

And amazingly enough, no one’s holiday was ruined by my not going the extra mile.
June and Sept are trying times because of the school schedule.

I can’t convince my son he needs to go to summer camp, he loves to stay home and play in our pool.
{As i sit here, i just realized that its my selfishness that gets to me in June} all school year I’m doing my own thing and in the summer, my schedule gets all discombobulated by the boy being home.
Sept. is usually the time I start feeling like I need to do something, volunteer or get a job.
From sept. to dec. it gets busy.
But March is a weird one, its my birthday and my sons birthday, but nothing really stands out  to be a factor in the cycle. Maybe just because it is a cycle.

Ok, Im done venting, Im happy because Im seeing Amazing Grace today.

I have salvation, rest, peace and joy from the Lord. My family, my health.

Please see this page for history of me and depression

Blessings on your day!

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Please see follow up to this post

1 Timothy 6:6-12 –
6 But godliness {actually} is a means of great gain when accompanied by contentment.  7 For we have brought nothing into the world, so we cannot take anything out of it either. 8 If we have food and covering, with these we shall be content. 9 But  those who want to get rich fall into temptation and a snare and many foolish and harmful desires which plunge men into ruin and destruction. 10 For the  love of money is a root of all sorts of evil, and some by longing for it have wandered  away from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. 11 But flee  from these things, you man  of God, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love,  perseverance  {and} gentleness. 12 Fight the good fight of faith;  take  hold of the eternal life to which you were called, and you made the good confession  in the presence of many witnesses.

Hello! My Name is Deacon’s Wife


It’s official, the congregation voted my hubby in as a Deacon!

Argh, Deacons Wife? Me? Does this mean now I have to be good? I hate labels…..

AND I got chosen to do a 10  minute schpeel in the high school sunday school class.

The topic? “A Great Cloud of Witnesses” Hebrews 12:1-2

‘Adults will share for the 1st 10 minutes how God, the author and perfecter of our faith, has been faithful to them, and then answer questions from high school students about their walk with Christ.’

Now, I know most of these kids, well. And they know me, and well, enough said.

There is a list of possible questions the kids can ask me and some pop culture questions to answer

~here they are:

1. Favorite music/songs/bands in high school?

So the kids can laugh at the music? They don’t even know what record players are. I heard somewhere that the first Walkman cost 200 dollars.

I have 3 sitting here I will sell for 200 bucks a pop.

Favorite band ~ Rick Springfield. He was HOT! (My hubbys fav was/is Bruce Springsteen) People get them confused. Bruce is the ugly one.

Rick Springfield Photo

Pat Benetar, Quiet Riot, Tom Petty, Barry Manilow  (mind you, I’m remembering all the albums I had in high school) Cyndy Lauper, Lover Boy, I went to a Lover Boy/Quiet Riot concert once. Michael Jackson, wait, make that Jackson 5, and that was in grade school. When he was human, of course.

OK on to #2

2. Favorite Movie? I loved Footloose. Everyone liked Grease.

3. Favorite TV show? Starsky and Hutch, we have been getting the Netflix DVD’s of S and H and my son loves them!!!! Shh, I owned a Starsky doll, in high school, hehe, snort, hehe

Cagney and Lacey, Welcome Back, Kotter. Emergency, Adam 12, Dragnet.

Miami Vice! Oh yeah, sonny crockett, the man dreams are made of.  Knight Rider, anything vampire, World Wrestling Federation. (when it was still real),  SCHOOLHOUSE ROCK!!!!

Miami Vice

We were never allowed to watch TV when my dad was in the den. He wanted everyone quiet, we couldn’t even chew gum, eat, talk, breathe. He was always kicking us out. Saturday morning was when we could watch TV.

4. Favorite celebrities/athletes? Well, I pretty much summed that up with the above questions.

I remember going to a WWF event in Seattle, I was with my hubby then, but we weren’t married. We got to sit in some aisle seats and Razor Ramon and Nash came walking down aisle, they were huge! Towering, actually. But I digress. Excuse me, wiping the drool from my shirt 😉

Those were the pop culture questions. I’m also supposed to bring a high school picture, if my hubby can get the Chevy Blazer to start, we can get to the photo albums in the rubbermaid boxes. I might post the ‘dorothy hamill’ hair pictures I sported from 1st grade to 7th grade, how humiliating 😦

this is the various forms of the Dorthy hair I was talking about, click on the flickr on the sidebar to see the pic bigger. My brother and I would be in a restaurant and the waitress would ask, “what would you boys like to eat?”

Possible Questions are:

(By the way, thank you for reading these, typing this out is making me answer the ?’s and not be so nervous about it.)

1. Who were some major influences in your life? Role models? Why?

I’m assuming this means in high school. and I can’t remember. I could say Cyndy Lauper, but they wouldn’t know who she is.

2. How did you choose your Career?

Home Engineer, top 10 best paying job around…..I get a shopping allowance of 250 every 2 weeks, for groceries, gas and such. We figured it out, I make about 2.17$ an hour. But I have full range freedom of the checkbook and do all the shopping of every kind in this home. My hubby hasn’t been clothes shopping since he was single. ok, get back on track…

Actually my career chose me, after being in the mental hospital, we (me and hubby) decided I should stay home, take care of the home front, kids and hubby and go back to work when I felt ready. I have never felt ready yet. My goal is to go back to work or school when hubby retires and son go off to college.

3. How did God’s Word influence your decisions regarding relationships?

Well, Gods Word never influence my relationships in high school. As for girl friends, i pretty much only had a few close ones and had lots of guy friends.

4. Is there anything you wish you would have done differently in high school?

Yeah, never fell in love, and never tried to forget the first love by dating tons of guys after that.

5. What are some of the joys you have had in your walk with the Lord?

My hubby walking with me, my sons tender heart for the things of God. My soberness, my ever-changing perspective on the world. My ever so slowly growing contentment with what God has placed before me.

6. What were some of the struggles or challenges you faced in high school and after?

Going to college, I started many times and something always got in the way. I always felt I was just mediocre at things, never good at any one thing. Getting out from under my mothers thumb.

My senior year was ruined by an ex spray painting my name on the wall of the school, with a bad word next to it.

7. What do you think your life would look like if you had not become a Christian? Or, how is your life different as a Christian?

My life would be no more, I would be dead or wishing I was dead. Alcohol would have consumed my life. I would have no family, no security, no life.

My life now is secure, today and eternally, I’m sober, responsible, not under the dominion of Satan, really.

My life is not controlled by my sins. My depressive episodes are mostly under control, I can function.

8. Why do you believe what the Bible says?

Hmm, good question, I would like to say, Because, I just believe it, its about faith and I have it. But I know there is a better answer than that. I don’t look up all the historical and scientific evidence for the bible, I have read it and I believe. It seems to not contradict itself. It talks of a God who has forgiven my sins and shows me how to live my life and to whom I should live my life for….

9. What Bible verses have been important to you?

Easy, Psalms 46:10a. Be Still and Know that I am God. All the verses that talk about joy. And Peace and contentment. James 1:2, Gal 5:22, 1 peter 1:8, Jude 1:24, Proverbs.

10. Why do you worship at ERC?

ERC is the first church we went to after our walk started. My hubby loved it and I grew to love it. We love the pastor and the people there. We have visited elsewhere but our heart is at ERC. The Word is preached there, people love each other there.

11. What are some of your best/worst decisions you have made?

Best: marrying my hubby, having my boy, staying home, taking care of the most important things to me.

Worst: There are alot, my ‘testimony’ is here, for details,  click here

I have made 4 terrible, wrong, horrible decisions in my life.

12. What issues/questions/doctrines have you wrestled with in your faith?

I struggle with election/predestination. I struggle with the whole why do babies die and where do they go?

I struggle with forgiving myself, even tho I know God has. I struggle with sanctification, I want it now!

I struggle with free will/sovereignty of God. I know God is sovereign, He has to be, but the intricacies of the reformed faith, putting everything together so it makes sense. Also trying to explain it to someone else is a daunting task.

So the real question is

How has God been faithful to me?

He has brought me out of the mire of my sinful self  to the light of His Sons glory and forgiveness.

Ps 69:2 -I have sunk in deep mire, and there is no foothold; I have come into deep waters, and a flood overflows me.Ps 69:14 -Deliver me from the mire and do not let me sink; May I be delivered from my foes and from the deep waters.Isa 57:20 – But the wicked are like the tossing sea, For it cannot be quiet, And its waters toss up refuse and mud.

Tidbits From My House


Yesterday it rained, hailed, snowed and shined in my neighborhood.

Washington: the  indecisive soppy-wet jazzed up on coffee pine tree smelly state.

I pulled something in my shoulder yesterday. Ouchy, it hurt, it’s my left shoulder and I am left handed. Great, thank goodness it’s my week off of the weights, I need the rest. Hurts from my neck to the shoulder.



Look! the Fat chick is knitting!

Some other Mom know-it-alls:

My son and I were cracking on each other the other night, bickering and  he says ~

Son: Don’t look at the plank in my eye when you have a log in yours

Mom: I will take that plank out of your eye and beat your butt with it! (you can use that one, Kevin!)

Mom score 1, son 0

Next one; Son was walking over to the Doritos bag (hadn’t touched them yet) to eat some BEFORE breakfast and I said, “no way” after you eat something healthy.

Son: man, I wish I was a ninja (to stealthy take the chips)

Mom: then I would be the mom ninja, hello. (to know he was taking the chips)

Mom: 1, son: 0

Now I just caught him sneaking down the stairs with the bag of chips, I say, Hey! and he says, ‘What Ninja Mom? ‘all innocent like.

I’m trying not use devious titles to lure people to my site, but it’s very tempting and I kinda have. I wonder what it would be like to write headlines for newspapers?

I did sign up for Digg, and have received a lot of views from the site. I put 4 posts on there. I didn’t even know it existed.

When I got  125 views in one day I was amazed ~ but check this out ~


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Today there is even more dog puke searches on my dashboard:

I get the Dove commercial ’searches’ but the dog puke ones? How many dogs puke up all over?

Is this an epidemic? Do other peoples houses smell like puke too? Why are dogs puking all the time?

If this is a serious problem, someone needs to fix it! )

From ‘Prayers From Paul’ at

Dear Father,

I owe love to my fellow man, as you have said. What an endless debt! How can I keep your command to love my neighbor as myself?

What would it be like to live in a world where such unselfishness prevailed? Ah, it would be heaven on earth, therefore such behavior is a precondition of our heavenly inheritance.

But Lord, be gentle in your judgment toward me. I fall so far short on this. Love would absolutely do no wrong to one’s neighbor

– never taking anything that was his, or even wanting to. So fill me with love, so that I may fulfill your law.

In the name of Jesus, help me, Lord. Amen.

I Love the Fact We Have All We Need in Him


We just looked at these verses Tuesday at Bible Study and I saw this:

Ephesians 6

1Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right.

2“Honor your father and mother”—which is the first commandment with a promise—

3“that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth.”

4Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord.

5Slaves, obey your earthly masters with respect and fear, and with sincerity of heart, just as you would obey Christ.

6Obey them not only to win their favor when their eye is on you, but like slaves of Christ, doing the will of God from your heart.

7Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men,

8because you know that the Lord will reward everyone for whatever good he does, whether he is slave or free.

9And masters, treat your slaves in the same way. Do not threaten them, since you know that he who is both their Master and yours is in heaven, and there is no favoritism with him.

        When I did a marriage bible study 2 summers ago (boy was that a crazy study) We kept going around and around about how we should treat our hubbys/wives.

The phrase, ‘but what if’ kept coming up…

      But what if my hubby is mean to me

      But what if my wife doesn’t cook me dinner

      But what if the hubby is an unbeliever

      But what if she nags me and makes clean the house

      But what if she/he doesn’t respect/love me, why should I love/respect them?

      (Picture whining voices while you read this)

But this states, do these things for For the Lord, As unto the Lord, Obey Christ. We love and respect our wives/hubbys/children Because God wants us to, not because they deserve it!  Because GOD DESERVES it! Because we ‘owe’ it to God, because He is worthy  for us to obey Him.

There are promises from God in these verses.

It was so hard to convince these couples we should treat others well because God treats us well. If the only reason I treat my hubby well is because I am so grateful God has saved me and given me a Godly hubby then I’m to do that!

And be satisfied doing it.

I wish I would have seen this scripture, in this light, when I was leading that class.

Then there is this: preface, we were going over the tempter study I previously mentioned today and spiritual warfare came up:

The Armor of God

    10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 

11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 

12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.   

  If the class/leader/study was right, the tempter can control un-believers or they can be in the dominion of Satan, { see other Satan’s tactics on other post } then believers can struggle

(wrestling (a contest between two in which each endeavours to throw the other, and which is decided when the victor is able to hold his opponent down with his hand upon his neck) the term is transferred to the Christian’s struggle with the power of evil )

 with those folks, yet here it says our struggle is not with flesh and blood, as to say its not with the [person that’s causing us grief, it’s the SATAN behind it that we struggle with, the tempter] I don’t know if I’m being clear, if not, help me out

13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.  

          Put on means to to sink into (clothing), put on, clothe one’s self  

  14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,

15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.

16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.  17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

Look at all this; our full armor of God is Truth, righteousness, readiness of gospel of peace, faith, salvation, word of God and prayer!

Where do we get all this armor stuff from?

 God, His Word, His Son, not from the artillery store, not from the gun factory, not from the earthly way of struggling with someone.

I love the fact we have all we need in Him.  

   19Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel,

20for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should. (Please pray this for me as well)

If I have missed something or am not reading this right, please advise me.

Thanks for reading, Krislinatin

Greetings, Why Must Grace Come First?


In my sons bible class he was presented with this question ~

with this verse Colossians 1:1-4

Colossians 1

    1Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God, and Timothy our brother,

    2To the holy and faithful brothers in Christ at Colosse:
Grace and peace to you from God our Father.

Thanksgiving and Prayer

    3We always thank God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, when we pray for you, 4because we have heard of your faith in Christ Jesus and of the love you have for all the saints—

Grace always comes before peace in greetings such as this.

Why must grace come first?

Please comment ~

1Co 1:3Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. 2Co 1:2Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.

Ga 1:3Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ, Eph 1:2Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.

Php 1:2Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. Col 1:2To the saints and faithful brethren in Christ {who are} at Colossae: Grace to you and peace from God our Father.

1Th 1:1Paul and Silvanus and Timothy, To the church of the Thessalonians in God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ: Grace to you and peace.

2Th 1:2Grace to you and peace from God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. 1Ti 1:2To Timothy, {my} true child in {the} faith: Grace, mercy {and} peace from God the Father and Christ Jesus our Lord.

2Ti 1:2To Timothy, my beloved son: Grace, mercy {and} peace from God the Father and Christ Jesus our Lord. Tit 1:4To Titus, my true child in a common faith: Grace and peace from God the Father and Christ Jesus our Savior. Phm 1:3Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.

1Pe 1:2according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, by the sanctifying work of the Spirit, to obey Jesus Christ and be sprinkled with His blood: May grace and peace be yours in the fullest measure.

2Pe 1:2Grace and peace be multiplied to you in the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord; 2Jo 1:3Grace, mercy {and} peace will be with us, from God the Father and from Jesus Christ, the Son of the Father, in truth and love.

Re 1:4John to the seven churches that are in Asia: Grace to you and peace, from Him who is and who was and who is to come, and from the seven Spirits who are before His throne,

Mom’s Secret Handbook Only $29.99


Today my son came walking downstairs while I was working out.
He is home sick today, snot nose, stuffy head. Blah feeling. Since his progress report was good, He can afford a few days rest.
He walked downstairs and I said, ”I dont think there is any more, you might have to drink my skim milk”
He looked at me with wide eyes and said ‘Are you psychic?”
(no, just psycho, but thats another story) 😉

Well, I’m a mom, and moms know things.
Moms have ways.
My son used to try to find the eyes in the back of my head when he was younger.
 I have told him there is a parent handbook, he wants to see it, but I told him its top  secret and only moms can see it.
Dad have access to it, but they rarely read it.
I told him when he has his first kid the hospital will issue one to him and the extra set of  eyes also.
I told him parenting is an important job and he is not to take it lightly.
He still is in amazement how his momma knows things.
He still thinks I’m smart. And funny. And pretty. And I still have the best lap for when he is sick.
When he was little he had lots of ear infections and I would hold him on my lap and tell him, if I could I would take your sickness from you.
Last night as his huge lanky teenage 121 lb body is trying to get comfortable on me in our bed,  he asked me if I remembered saying that to him. I said Yep. He said ‘do you still mean it?’
I said, Heck no, I can’t get sick around here, I gotta take care of you and your sick dad!!! ;0
Then I said, of course I would take your sickness, I love you and don’t ever want anything bad to happen to you.

(the scary thing, I know bad things will happen to him, its part of life and part of sanctification, but oh how I pray that we both make it thru OK)
He is such a good kid and still has such a tender heart. When people comment on that, I just say, It’s all God.
I’m trying my darnest to screw him up, and Thank God He is there to fix it!
Got any good momma secrets to share?
Please leave a comment.
Blessings on your day!
Eph 6:1 –
Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right.

Col 3:20 –
Children, be obedient to your parents in all things, for this is well-pleasing to the Lord.
Joh 16:21 –
“Whenever a woman is in labor she has pain, because her hour has come; but when she gives birth to the child, she no longer remembers the anguish because of the joy that a child has been born into the world.
Pr 22:6 –
Train up a child in the way he should go, Even when he is old he will not depart from it.