well, God wrote the book, every day I live it out.
at the house I’m dog sitting at, I see all these books and things and wonder what she is looking for, is she looking for the answer to life?
Trying to find happyness, I guess. book on divination, the video Happy, mans eternal quest, the yoga of lies, etc.
But then I look at my pile of books and see the same thing… books on homosexuality, sexual sin, ‘when I relax, I feel guilty’ book, resisting gossip and finding contentment books.
Are we really that different? Nope.
I’m trying to find my contentment, to come to a place of ‘acceptance’ of my lot in life, to find the joy that comes from focusing on something greater than me; than my circumstances.
the one thing I SHOULD not do is start the day with Facebook. i’m on a page of christian mothers of gay kids and its so depressing. Reading articles, seeing everyone fight over rights, sin, etc. blah, blah, blah.
I used to talk to God all the time, all thru the day, just blabbing on and on. now I hardly pray. This is what I just said to a friend of mine..
Your secret is safe with me and my sad little prayer life will include XXXXX.
I have all but given up talking with God.
I kinda feel like He is just gonna do what whatever the hell He wants… I’m like the little fish in the big pond swimming against the tide.
So just my random thoughts today. Blessings. the Home engineer