Childhood “mistakes” are long forgotten, but an injury to your soul lasts forever

This post…..

tears me up and makes me furious and weepy all. over. again.

What will it take to make people understand the devastation sexual abuse does to  victims. To the families. To future generations.

I get so angry and frustrated. I don’t know what to do. How to help. What to fix.

The many adults who knew of my abuse including my parents, pastor, and teacher couldn’t fathom that a child, a young boy, was truly capable of this crime. In order to make it easier to stomach, they rationalized in their minds that maybe this was simply kids playing around. These mandatory reporters chose not to report. I still bear the pain of their actions. I was not believed. Nobody protected me. Nobody listened when I cried for help. They chose to believe my rapist instead of me. Over and over again, my abuse was minimized.

 

The next time you defend a predator and say, “Oh, he was just a child,” remember the faces of the innocent little ones whose childhood was stolen. –

 

See more at: http://boz.religionnews.com/2015/05/28/sexually-assaulted-in-a-christian-home-a-victim-speaks/#sthash.WP52lKr0.dpuf

 

This post i wrote still stands today and always. The Home Engineer

Teaching Old Dogs New Tricks

 Do’s and Don’ts of dog Ownership/Parenting

Do love them always, feed them the best possible food you can afford. Play with them, exercise is good for you both. Train them, go to obedience class, you will be very thankful you did, and it might even stop you from relinquishing them in the future due to bad behaviour.

Let them be a part of the family, they are pack animals, they love their families, they need their families. Keep them fit and healthy. Take them to the vet, give them vaccines and get them fixed.

Be prepared beforehand for all possibilities, for injury, or death, for old age. Put them in the will and make sure you have a plan for them if you die.

Do this BEFORE you adopt. Oh, and adopt, do not buy. Consider adopting an old dog. [or cat] They have most likely been trained and they need a forever family.

Don’t buy anyone else a dog [or cat], its a personal decision. Don’t buy it for the kids, don’t buy for relatives, friends, etc.

Do not get another living breathing thing unless you have researched the heck out of it and know that you can deal with it. Don’t think of a pet as a commodity. Don’t get rid of them when they are old, have no time for them anymore: they don’t understand why they are being left behind. All they want is to be with you.

Don’t assume they will get over it if you do relinquish them to a rescue or shelter.

Don’t leave them kenneled for 8-10 hours a day then watch TV all night and then make them sleep for 8+ hours. Make time for them.

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Black Lab Mix
Female
11 Years Old
60 pounds

Shiloh is a loveable, mellow 11 year old, compact 60 pound black lab mix. She enjoys belly rubs, playing fetch, taking walks and going for rides. She gets along well with other dogs and most people although she is shy of SOME men. She has been tempted to chase the cat. She is house trained and manages stairs very well.We initially thought that Shiloh could stay at home alone all day but have amended this and are looking for someone who is at home most of the day or can take a dog to work with them. Shiloh would be an ideal dog for going to work with her person.

She is an absolute dear and a treasure. We don’t want her to be lonely. She also will need a minimum of a half hour walk every day and some time to play fetch. She is a loyal companion who is happy to hang out quietly with you.
Shiloh’s foster mom says: “Now I am looking for an absolutely fantastic home for her. Every dog I have fostered so far has ended up with a better deal than I could give them if I kept them. I’ve come to realize that’s my gold standard and that’s what I need to find for any dog I foster.”

Can YOU bring home “the gold?”

Shiloh is being fostered in Olympia, WA.

If you want to learn more about any of the pets from Rebecca’s Rainbow or want to meet one of them, please contact us.
If you see an animal that interests you, you can use our online application forms to apply for an adoption.
 
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If for some ungodly reason you must get rid of a dog/cat/pet like say you are getting up there in age and none of your godforsaken family will take your pets, or your house burns down or you become homeless and haven’t set up ‘a pet will’ beforehand then here are a few do’s and don’ts for getting the creature adopted out:
Do tell the shelter/rescue everything you know about your pet, the good AND the bad. It will help them to get just the right family for your pet.
Do go to a reputable shelter/rescue, there is far too many people ‘flipping’ animals on Craigslist. [those people may be going to hell]
to add to above,
Do not lie about your pet, be truthful and honest.
Do not withhold information about your pet, this could result in pets being adopted and given back to shelter, time and time again.
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 *you can teach an old dog new tricks!

Psalm 12:10 Whoever is righteous has regard for the life of his beast,
but the mercy of the wicked is cruel.
Genesis 1:28 And God blessed them. And God said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply and fill the earth and subdue it, and have dominion over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the heavens and over every living thing that moves on the earth.”
Luke 12:6 Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God.

Psalm 104:24 O Lord, how manifold are your works!
In wisdom have you made them all;
the earth is full of your creatures.
25 Here is the sea, great and wide,
which teems with creatures innumerable,
living things both small and great.
26 There go the ships,
and Leviathan, which you formed to play in it.
27 These ball look to you,
to give them their food in due season.
28 When you give it to them, they gather it up;
when you open your hand, they are filled with good things.
29 When you hide your face, they are dismayed;
when you take away their breath, they die
and return to their dust.
30 When you send forth your Spirit, they are created,
and you renew the face of the ground.

psalm 147:7 Swing to the Lord with thanksgiving;
make melody to our God on the lyre!
8 He covers the heavens with clouds;
he prepares rain for the earth;
he makes grass grow on the hills.
9 He gives to the beasts their food,
and to the young ravens that cry.
10 His delight is not in the strength of the horse,
nor his pleasure in the legs of a man,
11 but the Lord takes pleasure in those who fear him,
in those who hope in his steadfast love.

Why Do I Still Feel?

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Why is it every morning I wake up with this low-level feeling of sadness and despair? My life is good, basically, I have worries, but nothing I can control.

I have a house, a job, a few friends, a family (albeit a dysfunctional one), nothing that requires this level of sadness.

I used to be a badass… Told myself and others that I was never going to let anyone hurt me, again. Keep the emotions inside, emotions were for babies.

But as I get older, as I found and lost more people, found and grasped onto God,  as I gained a husband, a baby, an extended family, I realized my real self is a ball of mushy disgusting feelings. My heart feels, too much. And I let it. Damn it.

{ I write this one morning and in the evening at my Jobs for Life class, we get to read this}

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Psalm 51

Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your steadfast love;
according to your abundant mercy
blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,
and cleanse me from my sin!
3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is ever before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight,
so that you may be justified in your words
and blameless in your judgment.
5 Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity,
and in sin did my mother conceive me.
6 Behold, you delight in truth in the inward being,
and you teach me wisdom in the secret heart.
7 Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean;
wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
8 Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones that you have broken rejoice.
9 Hide your face from my sins,
and blot out all my iniquities.
10 Create in me a clean heart, O God,
and renew a right spirit within me.
11 Cast me not away from your presence,
and take not your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
and uphold me with a willing spirit.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
and sinners will return to you.
14 Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God,
O God of my salvation,
and my tongue will sing aloud of your righteousness.
15 O Lord, open my lips,
and my mouth will declare your praise.
16 For you will not delight in sacrifice, or I would give it;
you will not be pleased with a burnt offering.
17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.
18 Do good to Zion in your good pleasure;
build up the walls of Jerusalem;
19 then will you delight in right sacrifices,
in burnt offerings and whole burnt offerings;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.

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Yearn for the Day

The New Heaven and the New Earth

21 Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for  the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more.

And I saw the holy city,new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God,prepared as a bride adorned for her husband.

And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. 

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

Do you yearn for this day?

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My Lion Hearted ”Weiner” Dog

For those of you that know what Joe Joe looks like, you will find this interesting:

 

 

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Here are pictures of my boy:

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I got the results back today and I have been laughing all day. I love my boy. rescued him from the indian reservation at about 4 months old. He has been a joy ever since.

Just ordered another one for my ‘cockapoo’ and my ‘affenpinscher mix’

http://www.wisdompanel.com/

cheaper here: http://www.amazon.com/

The Rhodesian ridgeback is a dog breed developed in Southern Africa. Its European forebears can be traced to the early pioneers of the Cape Colony of southern Africa, who crossed their dogs with the semi-domesticated, ridged hunting dogs of the Khoikhoi.
In the earlier parts of its history, the Rhodesian ridgeback has also been known as Van Rooyen’s lion dog, the African lion hound or African lion dog—simba inja in Ndebele, shumba imbwa in Shona—because of its ability to keep a lion at bay while awaiting its master to make the kill.

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The Chihuahua’s history is puzzling and there are many theories surrounding the origin of the breed. Both folklore and archaeological finds show that the breed originated in Mexico. The most common and most likely theory is that Chihuahuas are descended from the Techichi, a companion dog favored by the Toltec civilization in Mexico. No records of the Techichi are available prior to the 9th century, although dog pots from Colima, Mexico, buried as part of the western Mexico shaft tomb tradition which date back to 300 BC are thought to depict Techichis. It is probable that earlier ancestors were present prior to the Mayans as dogs approximating the Chihuahua are found in materials from the Great Pyramid of Cholula, predating 1530 and in the ruins of Chichen Itza on the Yucatán Peninsula.

IOWA 2015 ~ My Vacation

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my luggage managed to get lost and I only received it two days til my departure

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Arrival at the airport. I love Iowa and I love my hosts/my friends/my siblings in Christ

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Thrift store shopping is something me and Micaela love to do and this was the find of the century!!

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When I finally got my bags I told Micaela I think the guys brought me the wrong size jeans, mine are too small. MAYbe because Doug got up early and cooked me an apple pie and we ate a piece for breakfast every morning

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I stayed on a farm/bednbreakfast/apple orchard with my friends I met blogging 6 [?] years ago. Been visiting every year ever since.

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Doug put me to work raking up leaves in the orchard so the spores on the dead leaves do not infect the trees. Little did he know, I put a mysterious gift in each pile for him to pick up. {Libby poop}

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This is Libby, resident farm dog. Master pooper and walker. Sometime bunneh killer.

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Had to get a picture at Walmart. Doesn’t everyone?

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We figured out how to put stencils on apple crates. There were over 100 needed to be done but I think I only got to 15 of them.

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Miss Kitty, beautiful calico, resident rodent hunter and snuggle buddy

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my little gourd project. We can’t get gourds to dry here in the PNW, too damp. Pretty excited over this little thing.

My week went by way too fast. I must be a farm girl trapped in a city.

What is your favorite vacation spot? and your favorite thing to do there?

Are You Sure You Are Saved?

At church last Sunday the verses were these below, the Reformation ESV study Bible had a note, so I looked it up:

2 Corinthians 13 English Standard Version (ESV)

Final Warnings
13 This is the third time I am coming to you. Every charge must be established by the evidence of two or three witnesses. 2 I warned those who sinned before and all the others, and I warn them now while absent, as I did when present on my second visit, that if I come again I will not spare them— 3 since you seek proof that Christ is speaking in me. He is not weak in dealing with you, but is powerful among you. 4 For he was crucified in weakness, but lives by the power of God. For we also are weak in him, but in dealing with you we will live with him by the power of God.

5 Examine yourselves, to see whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Or do you not realize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless indeed you fail to meet the test! 6 I hope you will find out that we have not failed the test. 7 But we pray to God that you may not do wrong—not that we may appear to have met the test, but that you may do what is right, though we may seem to have failed. 8 For we cannot do anything against the truth, but only for the truth. 9 For we are glad when we are weak and you are strong. Your restoration is what we pray for. 10 For this reason I write these things while I am away from you, that when I come I may not have to be severe in my use of the authority that the Lord has given me for building up and not for tearing down.

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TEXT NOTES: 13:5 Examine . . . Test. See 1 Cor. 11:28; Gal. 6:4.

Paul’s words help clarify the doctrine of assurance of faith. Paul asks the Corinthians to examine their own lives for evidence of salvation.

Such evidence would include trust in Christ (Heb. 3:6),

Now Moses was faithful in all God’s house as a servant, to testify to the things that were to be spoken later,but Christ is faithful over God’s house as a son. And we are his house if indeed we hold fast our confidence and our boasting in our hope.

obedience to God (Matt. 7:21),

21 “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven.

growth in holiness (Heb. 12:14; 1 John 3:3),

14 Strive for peace with everyone, and for the holiness without which no one will see the Lord.

Jesus answered him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again[b] he cannot see the kingdom of God.”

the fruit of the Spirit (Gal. 5:22, 23),

22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. 24 And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.

love for other Christians (1 John 3:14),

14 We know that we have passed out of death into life, because we love the brothers. Whoever does not love abides in death.

Positive influence on others (Matt. 5:16),

14 “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that[b] they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.

adhering to the apostolic teaching (1 John 4:2),

Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, for many false prophets have gone out into the world. 2 By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, 3 and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God. This is the spirit of the antichrist, which you heard was coming and now is in the world already.

and the testimony of the Holy Spirit within them (Rom. 8:15, 16).

12 So then, brothers,[e] we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh. 13 For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. 14 For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons[f] of God. 15 For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!” 16 The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, 17 and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him.

 

Do you have all that? Do I have all that? Trust, obedience, growth, fruit, love? Sometimes I think, yes…sometimes, no.

If we don’t think/feel/see these assurances, then how do we know we are saved?

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